one litre of tears

its almost 4 nw , n i jz finish watching the most touching japanesse drama ever , it reli touch me , every episode . it is a drama based on the the true story of a 15 year old girl who got an incurable dicease , its journey through pain , humiliating by others , finding courage to live on till the end of her life . without de freedom to walk , talk and do wat othr teenegers are doin everyday , she find courageous words and meaning to live on to help her hold on to her life , inspire and touch by her courage , i cried watching every episode , i learn something simply but meaning ful through out tis drama . THE BIGGEST HAPPINESS IS HAVING THE CHANCE TO LIVE ~ waking up everyday , opening ur eys to a brand new day is a blessing . is something tat may seems stupid to everyone , something tat no one ever cares about before , but somewhere around us , somewhere where we dun know , they are ppl who lives in agonizing pain , fight for their lives , struggle to live , jz for the sake of waking up to another day . we as a normal human , without disabilities and dicease should live to the fullest , we should live eveyday as though its our last day , do everythinf we can appreciate each other , we not only live for ourself , we also live for those who didn't manage to complete their journey in this world , we live for them . dun complain dun destory ur self with itsy bitsy things , dun destroy ur live by mistreating ur self . everyone has only one chance to live !not two not three , jz these once !

i miss my mummy ~

i miss u mummy...miss the most when im in a bad mood and when i feel like u can protect me from everything ....like u alwayz do ...reli miss u ....dis coming sunday is a special day for all mothers in the world ....a day where sons and daughters thank ..appreaciate and shower their wonderful mothers with love ....to thank tat we are in this world b coz of them ...they went through months of inconvenience ..and hours of pain that we have no cougare to undergo , to bring us into this fabulous world ....raise us up with their overloaded love ....protect us like a tigress protecting its cubs .....give us a hand when we are slowly vanishing behind ......gives advices that are nonsence to us nw but usefull years later ......i love u mummy ~ very sorry that im not around u to celebrate with u this coming mothers day ....dis will be the very first year that im not celebrating with u rite ?sorry to dissapoint u..im disspointed too.. dat i cant go bc b coz of my projects ...sorry and i love u ~

i want to go bc !

i want to go home ..i want to go home right now ..tis very minute ..i dun care if it is 3 something in the midnight....papa..can u come and fetch me home now ???? im desperate to go home ...I WANT TO GO HOME .....i miss u guys .....who treat me good all the time who treat me as their little sister ...i miss u guys ..i dun wan to be here ..this very place ...i want to be out of this place RIGHT NOW !...nv thought bf tat i would miss home this much ...i miss my friends ..i miss my secondary school days ...i miss everything in malacca and dislike everything here ..( tis is my feeling right now )oh...god ...who can bring me bc home ?????? i learned today dat home is better than anywhere else ~

headache~

ouch !!1 my head hurts damn alot !!!! its torturing ...it atrted the moment i when to de lobby with xin hui ..i started to have the urge to vomit ..den the headache arrive ....it throbs into my head nw and den ...and it hasnt gone away ...huhuhu......y m i suffering from headache ..its been a whole week .....huhuhu.....wats wrong wit me ?????m i having a disease ????arghhhhhh!!!!! shoo shoo shoooooooo......go away ~ today i learned dat ...headache is unbearable , torturing ! okie ....sleep !

no one is worth u trusting !

jz when i tot i found three soulmates which can listen and keep secrets ....one of them gave me a stab from my back ....it hurts damn deep ....i cant breathe for minutes when i first heard it ~ its heart breaking ...i alwayz respect ppl's privacy...i dun pester ppl to tell me their secrets...dey come to me ....i respect it ...i dun ask .unless dey are my super duperbest friends ...i think dat when someone wants to tell u something dey will tell if they wan ,its no use asking ...but the moment they tell i respect it ..its a secret rite ?? u arent supposed to say out ...U R SUPPOSSED TO KEEP IT !can u plz respect it too!!! i respect urs ! surprisingly ..i felt nothin when i was told about it ....my heart felt numb...guesse im damn dissapointed in u ....i believed in u ..nvm ....u r still de fried dat i respect ...jz hope that may b i can forget it tomoro ....giv me a day ...may b ..i can forget it ~ today i learned dat..... no one is worth u trusting ~

may 1

wat have i gain today ??? its a new beginning of may ....the day is sunny ...birds are whistling ...unfortunately the wind is nt blowing at all! it was damn humid and hot in room 1 bu10/1079...im in a bad mood ...i wish so much dat i was out of this house ...i want to go out !out !out !!!!...when i voice out dat i wan to go to sungei wang alone ..my housemates and roomates plus classmates was like ??? are u sure ??u can ?? reli ?? eh ..u better dun go la ! lol...tats when i knw dat ...im a road directions freak!!lol~ in the end i end up goin out with hoay phing ...cendy and krystal ~ xin hui join us in the middle . i learned dat being with friends sometimes lightened up ur mood ...being with friends sometimes makes u more energetic .p/s i also learned dat every first day of a new month...mc d 's ice cream price is as low as 50cents ~

changes dat makes me grow ~

from today onwards im goin to blog as often as possible on wat i learned everyday .....wat i went through everyday ..wat r those changes dat makes me grow ~everyone have to grow up....sometimes when we look back we suddenly feel tat we are totally diffrent compare to a few years ago.....the way we think and act...no matter is for good or bad . i want to knw wat changes me ....wat in everyday lives dat makes me into another person...to tis person im nw and future ~