rambling .....rambling....rambling.....

its 2 am now, and my butt is still sticking on the chair donwstair with fat bloody mosquitoes sucking my fresh blood. geez. its essay again ! yeepeee =) the subject that i enjoy most ... teeeheeee.... because im such a long-winded person i can talk and talk and talk and over talk. almost 600 hundred words but not even close to the conclusion. die lor, i dont even knw wether im on the track or out of track. but nvm =) mr leong said its just a warm -up essay. its just a bloody warm-up essay, not dissertation OK .im gonna finish it today =)

*this post is just a rambling post, so pardon me for my sentence structures , no one rambles and still thinks of structures ok.*

im happy that my christmas celabration went well, im happy that i get to hangout with my schoolmates and some good friends, im happy that i've almost finish my essay, im happy that its holiday, im happy that im at home, im happy that i've a long chat with my cousins today, im happy that i've trim my eyebrow today, im happy that my complexion has improve a little, im happy that i've bought a dress and belt today.

im unhappy because holiday is ending, im unhappy i still have one final development model to finish before goin back to kl, im unhappy because one roomie has shifted, im unhappy because im leaving my home again next week.

so, looking at the scores, overall i think im still happy =) as we grew older and mature, we tend to hunt for the big thing to satisfied our desires. But sometimes, small tiny happenings and incidents can fulfill that crave too. just by chatting with your family&friends can be quite fulfilling too, even if its just craps. It all depends on how we interprete it. *blah blah blah......me with my philosophy again....*

im procrastinating too long now, gotta go back to my essay. sorry for such a random post =) *oh ya, alvin kwang you shock me ! u shock me with your face in the follower's list. how you dig my blog wan r. ok i admit im being a wee little bit anxious now. because i sense a tiny growth in my readers, never expected it because it all started out as a guarded empty space just to voice out my thoughts and feelings. but nevermind =) not my father or mother reading can d. *sigh, i guesse im not measured for the successful-blogger-type. im comfortable enough in this small circle of close friends =) welcome alvin =)

ok. bye. essay calling me. bye.

my dearest roomie =) i love you .

to my dearest roomie ~

dear cayenne , i still rmb the second person that i get to know in this house is you =) you gave me the impression of being a cute intelligent kind of girl , and true too u are cute , intelligent , independent and blurry too =D. although we were not roomies at the very beginning and we werent actually that close becoz of ...* u knw * we kind of tot you were in the same group as her =) but deep inside i hold no grudge against you and i actually admire you alot because you are everything that im not * except the blurrness * you have beauty with brains wherelse i have minimum beauty with a useless brain kept frozen inside the fridge. because im such a homie girl, ur independency actually shock me =) i actually really do hope that one day i can be as independent as you are =) two years ago, i will not go shopping on my own, two years ago i will not go out with public transport on my own, ......ect. but believe it or not i did all that and am comfortable with it now because of you . i always told myself if u can go out alone to find your friends without telling your parents . why cant i ? - Thank you -

As time flies , we got more and more close, eventually i shifted in as your new roomie =) the night that all hell break loose was the night i actually brave myself to ask you your opinion on * her * =) me and xinhui was so excited for our new member in the gang against *her* our relationship only got better and better from there =) we have so much fun as a gang and i loveee all my roomies in room 1 so so much especially you because we hang out so much , same class same house same course same gang =) its fun having you around. the best desicions i ever made this two years was shifting in to room 1 =) i dont know about u guys but i love the atmosphere in room 1 . we have such good relationship between our roomies i felt bless. we can be as quiet when we want to and as noisy when we want to. i like the mutual relation between us where we wake up in the morning of saturday/sunday and we dun feel the need to talk/communicate with each other, we dont have to force to communicate with each other , untill the time to plan for lunch or dinner. we talk when we want to, we shut ourself when we want to but our relationship is still as good =) Im not a very hygienic person at all, im actually quite messy, thank you for tolerating with me. im not sure wether i can ever find such good roomates in the future anymore . thanks for accepting me in room 1 - Thank you -

You are my second alarm clock. i'm not an early sleeper and an early riser like you, half of the time u were the one who woke me up with your shocking tone : OI! ITS 12 NOON LOR ! or ADELINE WE ARE LATE ! FASTER WAKE UP ! i really do appreciate that alot, i dont think everyone else's roomates is an alarm clock to them , may be its becoz we are in the same class , but still im glad and fortunate to have a human alarm clock when my mobile alarm doesnt work for me =) i dont know how im gonna survive after this , but - Thank you -

i still remember when u first came here, u told me u cant stand sleeping with the lights and music on. but with roomies that have different lifestyle , u eventually suit yourself to it. more like *immune* youself. im sorry for being a late sleeper and a hardcore music fans. i need the lights and music on when im awake but i know its hard for you. thx for tolerating with my lifestyle . - sorry , thank you -

i dont know wether u realise or not, i begin to rely alot on you. on almost everything. i keep on asking stupid questions every single day and thx for answering them with or without patience. especially in our projects and assignments. you are my life saviour. im not exaggerating , its true. im gona be so dead after this =( im gonna kill myself after this =( i rely ALOT on you on projects, physically and mentally. you were with me for every projects, every single bloody rushing projects. you help me not only physycally but also mentally. you support and advice me when i almost break-down. i duno , by chatting while rushing, you always manage to make me laugh when im actually stress to the max and im nt sure its ur silliness or my stupidness that pull us thru the bloody freaking sleepless nights. i guesse we got closer while exchanging small personal talks in the middle of those freaking bloody nights. i love them =) from bitching about college&lecturers, complaining about workloads to our family& friends and much more personal matters. i love chatting with you and having those personal talks =) makes the whole bloody night much more bearable. dont think im gonna survive after this but, ...... - Thank You -

you are a bright student , you pass every projects with flying marks wherelse im just an average student. im always average on everything. hence, i need alot of help during projects, you were always there for my stupid questions. without you may be i would even fail my project i think. im so freaking stupid i have to ask those question where i myself felt so embarrass , but u still help me with it.you gave suggestions and comments that i appreciated alot. you help me with everything that i dont know. and no, you have no idea know how much much much u meant to me. when i know you really are shifting i cried. Because i dun think im gonna survive without those bearable nights. its so lonely rushing for projects alone outside =( you were always sitting outside with me =( plus zhini is gonna graduate soon too. its gonna be a tough one for me on the next project. but still - Thank You -

from this post , may be some would think that we are soulmates or besties or bff those kind of things , but no, we are not. we are everything but not those. but i love you nevertheless. =) cool right , we are not soulmates, we are not besties , we are not best friend forever but i still love you as much =) you are one of the coolest roomie i ever had. eventhough i feel so sad and unwilling for you to shift but i cant do anything right, its not like if i pray hard for some fire or earthquake that would destroy your house it will happen right ? its not gonna happen right ? i dont know how im gonna survive without you and zhini's goin away soon too, everything will not be the same anymore after christmas. I guesse i'm force to accept it. Once again. i would like to say :

* THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING * will surely miss your absence in room 1.

p/s : once roomates forever roomates =) we are not best friend forever but roomates forever =)

merry christmassss =)

one of those things that kept me going on while i nearly break-down in assignments and projects was the fact that christmast holiday is near. when there is no hope we dig and dig and tend to cling on to that very hope that we dug out. just by someone mentioning would make me atleast feels that tiny bit of excitement. i heart christmas not because im a christian, not because i love santa claus, not because i love prezzies but of the same bunch of friends i hang out with every year for christmas. its kinda like a tradition for us for the pass few years and it has alwayz been the thing we were all planning big for it. this year was not to be different, at least thats what i naively thought. i actually forgot about how people change throughout the years, i actually forgot that not everyone is backing up that intention that all of us once solely swear and agree on. so may be im one of the few ones that still rmb. i have others inviting to spend some quality time together for christmast but it doesnt seems natural to celabrate with them because its not like that for the pass few years, i stick with the same bunch just because we all kept promise about it.

so quite a while ago, kim yeat actually ask me out on christmast with a couple of friends and i politely rejected and at that very moment i reject, i doubt on how im goin to celabrate this christmas. how sure was i that i actually do have a christmas celabration this year with the same bunch of friends.

BUT now, i just dont freaking care anymore ! =))) so what if its not the same bunch, people change so i guesse i need a change too =) hey ! its not like i dont have others to celabrate with ! im not gona waste my christmas =)) worst to worst i can just celabrate with my families =) hey ! i have super duper cool cousins lor =) amanda and celine is just as cool as all of you !!! xP malacca is a small great place to celabrate christmas tooo =)) i misss malacca =)

im looking forward to the coming two weeks hols and christmasssss wooohooooo~merry merry christmas everyone xP

randoms

hmmmm...its almost two but no, those tiny bit of sleepy-ness havent reach me yet. i felt terribly sleepy this afternoon, may be the short hideous nap i took in mph did work for me =). so, tomoro its ME -DAY again. its gona be me and me and me and nobody else. *sigh i chose to not go genting with the gang coz im pathetic like that. i knw i wont be doing homework for the whole day tomoro. its really just for the peace of my conscience. im nt goin to enjoy fully because i feel guilty for neglecting my homework so might as well not go. somemore i skip class today =(( didnt feel right u knw, im not the skip-your-class type. its the second time in these few short months. T_____T noooo....im not turning it into a habit am i ??? this canot be tolerate ! apart from feeling guilty ....its definitely worth it though ! coz its my dear roomie-cayenne's birthday =) and 2012 is awesome ! WORTH IT !

so, because i let my geniue brain wanders freely just for tonight, i suddenly have lotsa options to make. what time shall i sleep tonight, its a waste to sleep early coz tomoro is the start of anew research. if i sleep late what time shall i wake-up tomoro ? if there is no accident or anything like that i think i will wake-up greeting mr sun. so, whats for lunch tomoro ? and dinner ? what movie/drama shall i watch before starting my research ? shall i appear busy or available in msn tomorrow ? shall i be kind and unblock everyone in my msn list just for tomoro ? shall take the whole afternoon reading my books or what. ok im being silly. im tired of making decisions. i shall leave everything to god . lol.

its another silly random post. i shall sleep in late for today. yeeeepeeeee. and plz let me be alive tomoro. i still want to live okay. im not that depressed to commit suicide ok dearest brian. dun worry.

无题

学会不要对别人要求高,你在意的事件就会越来越少,心灵上的创伤就会越来越少,曾经在意,执著的东西根本就不起眼也不算什么了.


p/s : 同样的事如果发生在两年前我绝对会很伤,现在它根本什么都不是^^. 它连逗留的资格都没有. =)

miss u lar =(

awwww freaking misssss u larrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ! i wan to see u nowwwwwww ! =( *sigh . my life is so sad and miserable lar, its alwayz congested with workloads. ahhhhhhhhhhh i missss u larrrrrrrrrrrrrr ! blah blah blah blah blah. when i let loose myself , it means all hell break loose, muahaha. im not doing hmw today !!!!! dun even give a shit about it for now. i jz wan a rest. have been undergoing a very tense period and now that im free, im wild ! muahaha. but jz for tonight, tomoro is another new briefing of a new project. FML ! FML ! *sigh.

a completely irrelevant p/s : hangout with ms elephant and rujia after presentation this morning, had sushi zanmai and went for a quick shopping spree. love hanging out with them so much, tired but i get the satisfaction ^^. we've even plan our next dining destinations for one whole week =)))

NIGHT WORLD ~ i shall sleep as though tomoro doesnt exist =).

make a difference .

today's presentation was a pleasureable experience for me, first time in 2 yrs im able to speak and voice out my opinion without fear. love ms wardah so much. she gives comment that makes u think deep rather than criticizing what has been done. we designers are here to make a difference. try to make a difference and not repeating what has been existing all this while, well said ms wardah . why spend 7o thousand just to come for college to be the same. might as well copy other peoples works u wont need to learn. why do you want to design something that alredy exist, its a waste of time. try not to limit ur creativity. Healthy comparison among peers is effective. there are so many colleges out there in the same industry, you have to have your own signature few more yrs later to compete and stand out from the thousands of designers. what makes you different from the thousands of people. what makes an employer choose you over them ? oh ya, ms wardah said eric leong spoilt the id industry =) if what u can do is just paint your wall with a few buckets of awesome colors plus some decorations, then might as well dont take this course, everyone can do that. he doesnt seems to attract alot of iad lecturers =) but its totally true, well said. ms wardah gave us credits for being able to successfully complete everything in such a short period, compare to the previous batch we have the best numbers of submissions =) im so proud of myself for being able to complete everything too =)

what ms wardah said today is more than what i express here, her words leave a big impact on me. todays presentation made me realise that after all the whinning and howling , its all worth it. i tot that i must have lost my passion for this subject, i was afraid for this time to come because i might be suffering like hell if i hate this course, i have another 1 yr to go. a tough one too! so im delighted that i finally know that i love this course alot, but i hate doing things in a rush and bein under pressure.anyway everything went smoothly lar, good luck to you ms wardah. hope everything goes well for u in singapore. sad though because i've never have you as my lecturer before. but, strive for your future and be strong ms wardah =) cheers !

phew, im tired. nap ^^

drowning.

a quick short post of my feeling at this moment. in fact, for this few weeks. i can barely breath peacefully. to do something that u like and once passionate about is pure pleasure, but everything has its limits kan? try doing it from day to night non-stop with ur ass sticking on the chair, u eventually hate it. not clear enough ? imagine u loveee kfc, try eating it for the whole damn day and u'll understand my situation. DROWNING is the exact word to describe my frustration. HELP ! WHEN IS IT GOIN TO END. IM GONNA PUKE LAR.

mummy, i dunwan to eat kfc lar. in fact, i've never been a hardcore fan of kfc. =(

im not hardworking.

im not at all qualified to be categorized as a hardworking girl . once, i use to be a lazy bum, everything that comes into my mind is everything but homework. i dont live life solely by completing homeworks. completing homework has never been the main concern. now, its barely anything like that anymore. its the opposite of everything. i now officially live life solely by completing projects/assignments in time. i live life by trying to outstand everyone which is so not me, which is something unreachable. im trying to accomplish something that isnt measured for me. everyday i brain feed myself into doing hmw. i force myself to complete my assignments. i miss being me, i miss my old-self. its bloody torturing. its really bloody torturing. im starting to go out of control again. its coming back again. im so sick of it, when will all this end ?

*counting on how much more emo post im goin to blog, we'll c hw far it gets.

loss the ability to be patient.

i get pissed of quite easily when im tired and stress. i tend to eat up people with my stares and words. my dear housie zoey just told me that im quite emo and sensitive this few days. true enough. i realise that long before anyone realise it. i've never ever experience before the stressful chaotic days like i had this two years, never before in my pass 18 years. im so frustrated even after everything is over. im frustrated that my head is half bald now, im frustrated that my health is deteriorating, im frustrated that im sleepy and tired all the time,im frustrated that i still have loads of drawings to complete. im frustrated about almost anything. everything in my sight is a fuss now. hence, when people slightly mention or say something dat provokes me, i tend to eat them up with my stares and words, eventho its jz a simply simple statement. i get so sensitive that i think everyone around me is so irritating. =( so sorry guys if i ever hurt u with words or anything .... bear in mind its not done in purpose. usually i dun bother if u pissed me off or tease me, but when im tired i loss the ability to be patient. so please dun tease me or pick a fight with me i have no energy left for that, its either i fight or flight. im sorry too to some of my old besties, i barely reply and layan with sincere in msn, im jz too tired for teasing right now. im alwayz a good target for teasing and silly jokes, but next time okay guys. sorry. let me boost myself up first =)

*everyone is so mentally and phsycally tired recently, we really do need a release trip =)

-off to nap -

random writings

its only 6:33 but the skies are shockingly dark . is it me or you ? i thought im the only one who mixed up days with nights, nights with days. seems to me you are having a complicated period too . *sigh. last few stressful chaotic days drain out my soul. im neither happy nor sad. those tiny tingling sense of anxiousness cant seem to go away, its still lingering somewhere at the corner. sister's keepers drain my soul even deeper, but i like it. the book is more intresting though. "All work and no play makes jack a dull boy, all play and no work makes jack a mere toy. " true enough, but where is the balance between then ? right now im just trying to keep my finger on the pulse.

the pro and cons.

im not goin to ramble about how stress im or how suffer im this few weeks as i've said enuf. ms elepahant says our blog is so boring now becoz its all about how stress we are in projects. Im jz listing out the pro's and con's of last few stressful chaotic weeks on final model making.

The con's
1. i vomited few times becoz of overly stress. * crystal clear water came out from the puke as i've consume nothing for days and days.
2. lost my appetite and ate nothing but biscuits and water.
3. major serious hair loss. my hair is all flat and dull now. half bald.
4. breakdown and cried alot.
5. stress level reach the max.
6. red small eyes for not sleeping enuf this two weeks. i almost didnt sleep.
7. dark eye circle begin to appear. my skin tone is dark enuf to cover it, so imagine when my dark circle is darker than my skin tone.
8.pale and souless.
9.my backbone hurts . sat too long on the chair , hours of model making turn me into an old lady.
10.seriously thought of giving up changing course and all.
11. make my parents and cousin in malacca worried about me.
12. seriously consider consulting a doc to help control my stress and ways to cope with my stress.
13. i cant differentiate the days now. everyday seems the same to me.

The Pro's
1. if the weighing machine next door is accurate, i lost 7 kg s in one week. *wow. great.
2. broke the record in completing my final in two days. two bloody hell days. a whole new unbelievable breakthru.

so thats the pro's and con's of last two weeks. im speechless tired phsycally and mentally. i cant take in anymore pressure at the time being. im very fragile now, so stay far away from me if u r looking for a fight or to tease me. im now a in a tired souless condition. i shall end this post with this : i've been thru hell all over again. lucky i found my way back.

p/s : really want to thanks ms elephant for phoning me now and then rambling and complaining the stress and workload. as u complain i've somehow found a way out for my stress and feelings, u speak for all the stress im enduring. u make me miss my best friend so much. thx again ms elephant =) muaksss . i shall buy you an elephant next time i see one ok =).


off to bed now. please dun make me die the next day ok. i still want to live.

stress to the max !

im gonna burst out crying soon ! im so stress =( im so damn stress now =( i wana cry out loud again, i cant take it easy =( how ??? final model is due next week =( how ? how ? how ? final coloured model is due NEXT MONDAY . HOW ? T____________T how ? how ? im so stress and moody now =(((( how ? how ? i havent done my portfolio, its a big possibility i will only finish my portfolio on either wednessday or thursday =( i can only start my model on thursday . and i have only two days to finish my final model which will be thursday and friday, the worst on saturday. NO, i cant finish on saturday, i need at least two days for all the drawings T.T b'coz im pathetically slow in drawings. ms huwi huwi want all of the drawing ready on monday. 2 fully coloured with photoshop plans. fully develop sections with ceiling and lightings, 2 axono , 1elevation, most important perspectives with renderings . PERSPECTIVE ..... how ? im bad at perspective, ms huwi huwi is so strict she only want very very good ones =((( HOW ???? ALL IN 3/4 Days , HOW ?? T_____________T im so stresss ! mummy i dont want to study d ! papa, im so stress how T__T HOW ? this is the worst birthday ever ! i dont want anything for my birthday! i really dont want anything d, i just want everything to be done by next monday. i just want everything to be done .......=((( the best gift would be a release stress pill . please, i need it now =( T_____________T i really need it now. can i buy it in any pharmacies ? i cant phone my mum coz she would be stress out too ! i cant i cant i cant call her. T__________T please i beg to finish everything in that very minimum period. please. please. =(

MAKE ME STAY AWAKE PLEASE~

AHHHH~ i wan to sleep lar. damn sleepy lar. i always feel sleepy and tired sitting at the table while doin my homework outside. GOD , help me lar,LORD mighthy, please help me lar, make me semangat abit boleh tak? I BEGGGGGG YOU. I need to finish my development models by today! so that i can go to pink bazzar with peace tomoro morning, so that when my parents come i can be in peace, i dont want my parents seeing me in a mess and stress to the max rushing for the due date. so LORD JESUS, KUAN YIN MAH, ALLAH, LORD KRISHNA, LORD LAKSHMI...ETC. PLEASE MAKE ME STAY AWAKE. GIVE ME MORE MOREEE MOREEE ENERGY .

i shall end this post with a sleepy pic.

meitu xiuxiu.

muahaha ~ everyone knows im not a big shopaholic, i dont spend my money buying lotsa desired stuff. yes, i may desire something for months but i wont buy it even though its on sale or wat, (coz usually on sale also damn expensive, branded mah =D) i would only look at it, touch it and leave ! =( so sad rite, such is the life of a student, somemore art student! everybit of my money is wasted in models cards and uhu , damnit. =(

BUT ! recently i release my own-self , i release the shopaholic in me ! muahhaaa i bought lots lots lots of HATSSSSSS. =DDDDD

we'll let the pictures do the talking =D

winter knitted beret

colourfull beanie of spring

xmas hat for this coming xmas celabration.

street cap

grandmother's knitted beanie

pure white beret

choco brown knit cap

flower knit cap

lalala ~nice or not my bargains ??? muahhahaaa ....im also in shock, i've never ever tried on those hats before and i dont even wear caps or hats wan !

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OKLAR, i edit those pics lar ! i didnt buy those hats lar. i so stingy and poor ,wont buy wan lar.muahaha, im currently overly excited about the new software i've downloaded, still havent get over it yet =D yiiiiiiiiiii! the software damn cute lor, still got nail art , contact lenses, specs, accesories....etc. its actually a simpler version of photoshop much much chio-er den photshop too !

btw, since cayenne my roomie wish to see me in heavy make-up which is quite rare ......hence the pic below is dedicated to u CAYENNE LIM . NAH.....!

i look super hideous lar ok. edited with my newly discovered software too. I add in eyelashes, eyeshadow make-up, and some blusher. AND i hapus all my pimples ! =( reli hate my pimply face. its reli much more easier to hapus the pimples using this software then in photoshop. cayenne i look like one of the prostitutes in the movie "taken" lar.

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and since my dear zoe always complain about my chubby fat round face , i shall dedicate this pic to her . NAH .....!

so zoe? u still wan my face to be thin or not ? damn ugly lar ok, my nose all distorted and i look like some weird retard bimbo. my lips almost like hoay phing's. LOL.

kindly visit http://xiuxiu.meitu.com/ if you are interested =D ciao. i shall end this post with another pic that i randomly edit.

random post.

“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” and “Design is not just what it looks like and feels like. Design is how it works.”

-steve job -

how to kill a cockroach ~

lets all clasp our hands together and pray for the beloved cokroach that i have murdered 5 months ago.
tadahhhh! =D gosh, i feel so happy i actually committed such crime. everyone close to me would surely knw that i have cats phobia, i fear cats to the utmost. ok, may be even strangers knws i have this phobia, coz i jump and scream at every encounter with cats. BUT ! im totally cool with insects and tiny reptiles =D. all this long i have been the famous murderer for cockroaches , teeehee =D

1st, to be a skillful coackroach murderer, u have to have good vision to aim and act quickly.

the all time favourite weapon is plastic bags tissues and any solid object . ya, just these three ! no nid for the guns and parangs. 2nd, use the plactic bag as ur glove, we wont want any finger prints left behind rite? HOLD UR BREATHE, aim and stare quietly at ur victim, DO NOT BLINK UR EYES, ur victim may run away in that few seconds u blink! bear in mind that we want effectiveness, DEAD at the first attempt, we dont wan to waste time on just one ! muahahaa~

If your victime is dumb enuf to stay still and not run away at the sight of you, quickly with all ur strenght trap the stupid victim with ur plastic glove u had just now, and then with all the bravery u have SQUASH IT ! till u hear the cringing voice of its broken limbs.

last but not least, you would want to double check to make sure its dead so that u can print out the death certificate, u open ur plastic bag, use the tissues we prepared and SQUASH IT one more time, till u hear the satisfying sound of blood spurting out !

TADAAAH ! ITS DEAD~ u may proceed to fling your victim out of the window, or if u are so kind enuf to bury your own victim , do it then. another alternatives, u may take nude photos of ur obsessions just like what i did and keep it under your pillow, look at it every night before u doze off =D

LALALA ~ gosh i sound like a pervert atrocious murderer.

if this post doesnt help u , im available 24 hours for the service:

contact me at :017-1234567 =D

decisions making.......ARGH~

ARGH~ im in intense stresss, one of those decisions-that-affect-your-day- moment. shud i go or not ? shud i go ? no? yes? no? yes? shud i? shud not? shud i? shud not? *pengsan.

if i go what shud i get for them ?


an apple bouquet?

or a creative veggie bouquet?

or i shud just go with plain ballons?

wait, i haven even figure out go or not to go yet ? YES ? NO ? YES ? NO ?

KUAN YIN MAH, HELP ME MAKE DECISIONS LEH. today is ur birthday, i ate vegetarian for half a day. im good rite. so shud i go ? no ? yes? .....*pengsan.

a pang of conscience

So are you still BUSY? I'm sure there's a moment in time that we are not. If you could have time to chat online with a random stranger, you could have picked up the phone and call your dear friend. If you could have the time to play game at home, you could have spend the evening for a football game (example) with your friends or even coffee...If your friends could spend time for you, why can't you? People are too keen to make new and more friends, but they just freaking don't know how to retain those friends they make...It's not the volume, it's the quality. If you have 1,000 you-think-it's-your-friends-but-they-are-not-coz-you-never-bothered-to-get-to-know-them-closer, who would be there for you when you need help?

-Ms Elise-

shameful to admit it, but i've probably made one of the silliest mistake all of us will make once in a while. just because u are a guy, i took you for granted. I actually did one of those things that only hypocrites would do. u would sms me 10 times, but i might only reply 3 times. u ask me out but never for once did i make my promises. u took the initiative to keep in touch with me while i thought that u were quite annoying. u remembered my birthday while i only remembered once. u gave me present when all the time i had forgotten its ur birthday. never for once did i feel shameful till our last conversation just now which i reckon would be our last if i never undo the wrongs that i have made.

Im sorry. if in future u never would even wanto look at me or may b u recognize me but u are just freaking tired of my attitude, i would never blame you.because its all my fault. i still do treasure you but i guesse i took you for granted and broke our relationship. sorry.

thanks to me, i've successfully pissed off one of my long time friend.

weird dream.

wow, i just had the weirdest dream i have in months. havent being dreaming for a long time d actually. got to jot down before i forget again.

so this is how the dream goes: out of sudden i duno why im together with my mum and miss mong *my mum's good friend. den out of sudden i met n'ji and the rest of house of nine, out of the blue, we all agree to go for a trip to some island * i forgot which island is it, its island lar . now that is weird! my mum and house of nine ?? nvm. the weirdest has yet to come. i rmb i sms cayenne to tell her im now on board in the plane flying of to a island to have my weekend . *damn rich weh, spend every weekend in island !. ok, isnt it a rule for a passengers to turn off their phone while on board, heck no! mine is on ! lol. *shit! i forgot why i turn on the phone , urgh! nvm, ok i duno why suddenly the plane landed on my house *@@* i think its for me to rest or wat before flying further. Then out of nowhere, my other group of besties appear infront of me, they claim to have been on the same plane as me with the same destination ! gosh. ok nvm, the best part is here, i caught my soulmate *hui ying pacing on some old street opposite my house, so i went to question her why isnt she joining us ? why is she looking like a a retard pacing up and down on some dirty old streets....lo and behold, she said she's afraid of joining us because of a guy name mark ! @@ ! now when did mark appear in this big picture ? and she claim that her" mark" is the "mark" that i knw ! * GOSH ! its hoay phings boyfriend ! she then told me the full story of how mark broke up with hoay phing and how she got to knw him and blah blah blah ....HAHAHA FUNNY MAN . actually i forgot what is so funny, but i knw its funny. sigh* why i always canot rmb the full story wan .

weird or not ? hmmm, doesnt sound so, duno lar, at that time when i woke up its super funny and weird lor, i even sms my soulmate to tell her. laughs* i think still have wan , but while trying and concentrating to rmb i somehow forgot about the rest ...haha. c if i rmb tonight. i wan to knw the ending =DD

its their convocation !

Ahhh~ its my besties convocation ~ ouwwww congratz to both of u for officially ending ur childhood days and stepping out to the world of superficiality. i wan so baddd to go to u guys convocations...but but...sigh* we'll c, if im there then im there, if im nt then im not, for some reasons ok. but for now lets just say that IM GOING =DD

PLEASSSSEEE PRETTTY PLEAASEE dear all pimples , please back off for a moment from my face boleh tak? i wan to look good for my besties convo. T_____T please lar, boleh lar, i'll feed u with doxycyline. deal ? u may burst as much as u like after that convo ok. *ok, no, dun burst out afterdat too*

congrats again to two of my besties =DD am proud of u both. =D

=(

felt so terrible today .T___________T

I duno why, but i realise this year im more tense-up and in stress. i guesse previous year taught me alot on time management and hardworking-ness. hence, this year, im alwayz reminding myself to complete my assignments and projects fast and effectively focusing on quality and quantity. i've told myself repeatly even before year2 starts. which is why this year i expect more out of myself . I get so tense -up easily if i nv meet one of those criterias that i've set for myself, once im tense-up i feel like crying and bawling. I duno, call me a cry baby or wat, but it reli makes me feel better only after i cried, may be thats my nature. =(

from the 1sat day of yr 2 i'm all set getting my amor suit prepared, all tense-up ready to conquer my first assignment. i knw i sucks at computer & software skills, but am not ready to give up yet, i knw i can master the skills if i work hard. i pressure myself to nt be a blur dumbo in the class, i listen with three ears, i dun mind being an annoying student repeatly asking questions till i get it, i felt like an annoying dumbo who everyone hates becoz im so dumb, but i dun care because at the end of the day, i understand and that is important because im nt goin to let myself get stuck with softwares like last year. i make myself practise autoCAD at least once a week , if i dont i get tense-up bcoz i think i might be lacking behind. so far, im quite satisfied with my progress, the only subject that im still cool with it .

Coming to project class ! i really do have a phobia now of project classes and tutorials. its so omfg tense lor ! everyone is so competitive in the class, even our tutor says so. Its only research mah ! Today was my first ever mental breakdown in yr2. ok so may b its not such a big deal to other students but it is to me.T_______T because i didnt complete my hmw and that is a sin to me.
=( felt so ashame of myself now. i know i can just blame rujia for it, but its really my own fault for not being independent enuff. so rujia, no worries i dont blame u =) . i didnt do concept models !!!! =(((( ok, so ms huwi huwi say its actually due on next mon, but everyone also do d !! =(( was freeze to the max in class, buterflies in my stomach cant even bring myself to speak moreover present. i almost burst out crying JUST BECAUSE OF THE F&%^$#$% MODELS. T__________T i felt like running out of class, i cant bear myself knowing others have completed their work but im nt up to par with them. LUCKILY, ms huwi huwi says its ok to show on wednessday. But i still feel bad & dissapointed on myself =( T____________T

i knw im nt as good and perfect like my friends, so i just have to workharder . people say "if u'r dumb, then work like a cow to cover up ur dumb-ness " well said. =)

*This is a whining post, dun expect it to be filled with a happy cheerful tone. skip if you cant accept. Its my blog. =)

T_________________________T

Im SO SO SO SO SO SO duple triple quadruple sad T_____________T that my roomie is moving out =( im in such intense sadness that i dun even feel like talking bcoz i might cry any minute T_____T i love my roomie so much, but she's moving out coz she doesnt love me anymore =(

i shall bury my intense sadness by watching souless humour series which might make me cry more than laugh T_________T.

christmast carols

T___________________________T attacked by insomnia again! ouwwww. ..why cant i sleep. can sleep dunwan sleep, when canot sleep baru bising bising. i think i mush have gone crazy, im too free, bored and tired, but i just cant sleep. INSTEAD, i ended up listening to christmast carols, hoping that i may fall asleep soon. INSTEAD, i ended up downloading a bunch of christmast carols. INSTEAD, i started to hum in the dark while my roomies are fast asleep. INSTEAD, i get more and more energetic listening to the songs. IN THE END i ended up here blogging. T________T seriously consider consulting a doc. i dunwan to die early. T____T

gosh its 4 am nw. i wana kill myself !

happy 21st shu mei and ah yong =D

dear shu mei & ah yong :

happy birthday shu mei & ming yong! u guys are officially 21 now ! ouwww, i feel so sad i cant be at the party celebrating with u guys. T______T sorry. anyway, we bought u a prezzie shu mei ! will give it to u when im bc next week. its a silver stainless steel wrist band with ur name carve on it. yeah ! ur BIG* name carve on it !ok , i feel like swearing now ! I SWEAR IM NT STEPPING INTO THAT SHOP EVER AGAIN !deep breathe* ok lets not spoil the mood. HOPE YOU LIKE IT =D its from me, hui ying, ann hwang, mauteng, ah kiat & yu fatt. =DD anyway credits shudbe given to me coz i chose that prezzie ! lalala =P

ah yong, if u'r reading this, u'll receive ur prezzie too. its a secret! deng deng * lol. an apology again from all of us in kl for nt turning up for the party. im glad that after so long, we are still as good as before, as chitchatty as before . love u guys ! * sorry, am nt in the mood for blogging currently, coz im aroused by the sound of my roomie cayenne playing guesse the sketch ! =D arrghhh.....im goin to join them now. ..... byeeeeee ! *

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN !

happy mid autumn ~

i miss mummy . i miss papa . i miss brian. T________________T i miss home terribly =(

happy mid autumn to all !

再见上弦月，告别下弦月，迎接全满月；月圆人团圆，赏月思故乡；游子四处游，心中念亲友；赏月如遇亲，心中已团圆；八月仲秋节，赏月好佳节；月亮特别圆，感觉特别近；月是好佳节，月饼挂嘴边。 希望未能和家人庆中秋的游子，仲秋节快乐。

moonlight shinning through the window,
i wonder if its the frost on the ground ?
looking up, i see the moon hung high,
missing my hometown when i tilt my head down.

my third day in coll ~

ahh~ im nt in the mood for blogging since i came bc to kl, and first few days was terrible. i still havent get over the fact that im entering yr 2 and classes have start. the 5 months hols was like a dream, now it felt like i've been drag out from heaven to hell all over again. i dont feel like socializing, i dont feel like goin anywhere fancy,having any fancy meal. part of me wants to fleet away from the flock,but my consious mind ask me to stay close. im still trying to fit myself in and get use to it,though i dont really feel like doing anything at all. And now, i officially hate long holidays. i rather it be a short one, long ones tend to make one lazy and fall in back to our comfort zone. urghh ! i hate long holidays! i've never felt this terrible before! previous hols was short and fun and i always look forward coming back for coll. so please please no more long hols please...

i'm gonna sue kbu if they give long hols again ! cheat people wan ! stilll have to pay rental somemore!

* im just trying to burn away the time by blogging while waiting for a meeting at 2.30. sobs* everyone else is having cad class but im notT_____T oh why do i have to be in a different group. sigh* life is like dis kan ? we cant alwez get what we want, so i'll just have to stick with it. i've loads of pending pics and post act, but later lar...wait till im in a better mood =)

times up! ciao. time really does fly. gosh.....

therthy who lives by the window.

received a sms from cayenne. T__________________T two years-old therthy died T T. its even more sad-der than when my own tweety died. tweety died early, but therthy was with us for two whole years. therthy was with us for the bloody two years that we thrived thru our course&projects. i will never forget the day four of us bought our tortoise back. we name them tweety,therthy,tutty&tortie.

it was a joyful and exciting day, because all four of us bought a tortoise . we just walk pass this pet shop in one-u and decided to buy these cute little tortoise and each of us walk out with a bulky tortoise case with us thru out the shopping spree. it was a spur-of-the-moment buy.

and now two are dead ! T_______T its dying one by one. people said tortoise live long, but our tortoise are destine to have a short -life. =( rest in peace therthy, and tell tweety for me that i suddenly miss him.

hi, blog.

ok, im abandoning my blog again. but..but..im so obsessed with my daily life now, that i think im satisfied enough nt to go online for a while..and ..and ...T______T father has given final warning on overusage of my laptop. Every now and then , upon encountering with a special event or b'days, or outings with frens , or some funny incident or ....etc. i said to me-self ...i will blog about tis! ...im so gonna blog about this.!...im gona..... blah blah blah, leaving a mental note to not forget about it. But ..but ...T__________T, because of inconvenience, i have to wait till everyone in
the house cleared. But....but...when dat time has come, i lost the touch of blogging about it. =(
darn ! looks like its goin to be like dis till i get back to kl, where i can blog freely.

list of new tittles which are non-existing , yet.
1. yum char with long-time-no-see friends.
2. de bak chang maker =)
3. bro's cheesie the great.
4. my sister's keeper.
5.my awful medicine
6.b'days that i have miss out.
7.the cute kids.
8. darling cousin.

aih....oh when ~on when~, will i finally blog about all this. ok bye. need to go mop the darn floor now. c u when i c u , blog. ciao.

im sick ~ Booohoooo=(

BEEN ATTACKED BY FEVER, SERIOUS COUGH, & FLU FOR A WEEK AND STILL GOING ON.


UPDATES ON TERRIBLE MEDICINE LATER . OFF TO REST NOW . CIAO.

no tittle ~

havent been online for ..erm two and a half days, and it felt like ages! ....frens too felt like im gone for ages! ....dat is de wonder of internet =) feel lazy to mengarang , so i'll make it point form. beginning to love it =D

met a totally childish -but is mature in phsyical guy. make new frens * shock with the open-ness of campbell aunty * tesco is much more friendlier than econsave * swear to heart i'll nv work in econsave again * congrats to me for having one thousand in my cimb bank account * i wan new attire ! * i wan do shoping with my shopaholic frens ! * went for jusco member day * got a couple of new tees * in search for an awesome denim jeans * saw my fren's wife pregnant with bulky belly * i wana watch transformer,angels and demons, ice age3,up, terminator, 1901, * cutted my fringe and look like a pharoah =) * went to print de brochures =DD * i broke my promise on nt to cosume fast food for a yr * went pizza-ing with my favourite bunch of frens * goin for more tea kosong with frens tonight * jogging with soulmate tomoro * bye *

"i ran out of ideas for this title "

dear bloggie,

sorry for abandoning u again. sorry for taking u for granted & posting random post just for the sake of u nt looking empty for too long. to be honest, i've alot to blog about, i've alot of heart to heart stuff that i wish i can find myself the exact words for them. may be all i need is the guts to face them , then the words will find me. hav not been happy this few days, and hated it. =( i'v lost a fren which i adore so much back then. i dont know her now, she's a stranger now. so , things do change huh ??

* the brighter side of this post is , im goin to hangout with my darling cousin amanda this afternoon. =DDDD

another random post .....

Its another random boring post . nothing much lately. working as usual . sleeping much as usual . sick for one week . done a couple of beauty salon's brochure . more brochures to go . mmu's volleyball club t-shirt design soon . prunes . more yogurts . birthdays . dissapointments . feeling secure . dreaming double . addicted to "you are not alone" . praises . losing my insomia . finish all story books . going for second round . searching for quality books . currently indulging in encyclopedia . helping bro in drawings & murals . missing someone terribly . nagging mum . nagging dad . planning the masive murder of mr chin . network is networth . giving it a second go . plurk . soulmates's three weeks hols . got a new ELS tee(finally) . felt like shit . self-lock . a chit-chat dream . facebooking .

BLAH BLAH BLAH...... N....N.....

*mood : bad .

randomly

have been thinking and doubting about the sincerity of "haha's" in msn......

"haha, yea...im goin there..."

"yea , rite ...haha "

"haha, yalor yalor ...."

" haha, im gona do that too..."

"ooh..haha....."

does it sounds like a "haha" anymore ?
more like a punctuation mark.

我选择迷迷糊糊。。。

并不是我迷迷糊糊过日子， 是我选择迷迷糊糊。
我宁愿自己是迷迷糊糊的，都不要把自己看得聪明点。
迷迷糊糊的眼中只会盯上迷迷糊糊的事与人。

my legs are killing me ~

1) urgh ! my legs are freaking painful. to be exact, it's toes .

2) didnt work as a promoter for two yrs, and im like a greenhorn again .

3) call me the fearnleaf girl that snatch&distribute "melk" from the cow in switzerland XD

4) econsave's back entrance+staff entrance+store rooom sucks ! smelly ! gross ! nasty ! *google the synonym of disgusting and u'll find everything there that suits!*

5) econsave is full of bloody malays.

6) Back entrance's staff is bloody rude.

7) fernleaf melk is bloody smelly.... well, i've never love melk

8) i took bloody half an hour to dismantle the entire booth + send it to store room+wash the bloody smelly melk container.

9) someone stole melk from the supermarket today !! get caught too ! *economy is so unsecure nowadays. *

10) for the first time in my entire two months hols, i feel sleepy at 11:30 .

11) I finally found the antidote to my insomia.

12) my legs are still killing me =(

13) i'll date mr moon early today.

NIGHT WORLD.

random....

well, im nt busted. But a flu is attacking me...ouwhhh ~ talk about perfect timing ! =(

p/s : Death comes at the most unexpected ordinary day. A tribute to world music legend, king of pop - Michael Jackson.

overcharge ~

i've never thought that i would ever come across the word OVERCHARGE. =) im so glad that im nt only fully charge but OVERCHARGE. hmmmm, but i think it aint doin me any good. =DDDD i hangout and hav supper with mr moon every middle of the night & wakeup just in time to have afternoon tea with mr sun. =DDD ahhhhhh, satisfaction~now and then, my peeps are complaining of hw bored and meaningless their holiday is and i find it funny though, b'coz im nt complaining at all =DDD why ?? duno either. its just my own perspective that, having all the time dedicated to ur family, have a long rest , let ur mind stray away is a good way of enjoying holidays too =) may be im jz nt like my peeps who cling on to work and meaningful activities to fufill their holidays. talking about cash flow, im doin part time for that, and blisfully happy that its only on weekends. which means i still have weekdays for my friends =DDDD

my holidays are not boring at all ..well sometimes yes, but nt the desperately bored type.

i help ah ma cook everyday for our dinner and lunch.

i do house chores everyday

i look after my dad's office once in a while

i hangout with my darling cousin amanda frequently.

chill out with my buddies sometimes

indulging in story books everyday

part time job as promoter on weekends.

watch movie every now and then.

awesome right ? i get to spend time with my family and indulge in my own stuff too =) i duno about others,but im satisfied with my hols ...=)

p/s : im goin training in a while, pls pls pray that i dun giggle out when aunt soon may speaks in english. im goin to be busted then! ahhhh amitofo~

signature

lalaaaa , im happy for my new signature...

random stuffff

*sigh* i miss my gang in kl. reli do miss them. am goin bc for one day in a couple of days, still havent decide which day yet. gotta get my black pants in my locker, and my ipod charger that i left there, and to bring bc the big photo frame that i intended to use for hand-crafts & a couple of sprays. gona do some artwork.

waiting patiently for weekends to come.

p/s : may be i've over-reacted lil bit . still, im wounded. im confuse, is it me or you ?

emo

went thru ur profile , saw ur pics and realise u actually did come bc to malacca. T_________T
im speechless. and to think that we sms on the day when u act did come bc but didnt tell me, and when u didnt reply my msn messages when u reli did come bc , was a stab in my heart. may be im wrong about our friendship all the time T_____________T. how can u do this to me ?? when we were so close once before. all the promises that we made are all craps and bullshit huh? i didnt expect u to come back everytime to go out with me , or to hangout with me. i just hope that u can tell me when u come bc , u knw, so called once bestest frens. T____________T

may be friendship do change, or am i the one who havent grow up yet? it gotta be me rite ? im still dat stupid innocent girl that holds on to our relationship tightly like a precious gem. im the only one that keep on putting the effort to stay close together, may be u loathed it. im sorry that i've turn out to be a friend that u have to hide ur whereabout from. i shud jz grow up ! our friendship will never go back rite ? things do change. dun worry, i get it now.


just for this once , for the entire 7 years of being my best best besties and soulmate

I HATE U !

plain gabbling ~

phew ~ just finish helping my papa marking english exam papers and recording marks. guesse what ! im all alone doin it dwnstair while my dearest papa is fast asleep upstair ! haahaa.....well, i dun mind act, since i cant sleep might as well do some work =)

tomoro is school reopen for the kids after two weeks of holidays, and my "very efficient" papa left all the papers till the last day to mark =.= . NO, actually is for me to mark ! haah . I got a huge surprise from marking the papers ! "huge" . so my father gave instructions and rule of marking to me, and then ! he said : when u record the marks rite, see carefully the names ya , my class got alot of idiots who cant even spell their names! some dun even knw their full name ! my response was HAAAHAAAAA, THATS A JOKE ! * continue marking *

THEN ! tadahhhh ! i met the idiot. OMG ! how can someone totally miss-spelled his/her own name ?? HOW WOULD IT BE ?? may be its acceptable if its a small miss-spelled in it, BUT this fellow sure didnt make a small mistake ! his name was :

VIRNESSWARAAN A/L RASAJAM
and he spelled it :
RIVIKINESWARAAN

i have a strong feeling he didn't forgot his full name, HE DUNO WAT IS IT ! i wasted time looking for god-knows-how many times in the name list for his name, and my father pointed it out in one minute. kanasai! honestly , i felt sad for him. not knowing ur own name is a disaster, imagine having to write ur name in exams or to fill form, but u duno the exact spelling of ur name, and u have to simply scribble one. that is soooooo sad, ur name is ur identity ! well, its his name not my name~ my father is so goin to whack him, and he deserve it.

after finish marking, i totally support the education ministry's idea of making English language a MUST-PASS subject equivalent to bahasa malaysia. all the papers that i have mark are mostly malay's and the most they get out of 15 is 4 , imagine that. for so many yrs we chinese thrive hard to pass in bahasa malaysia, no doubt we done well. so now, its ur turn to thrive as hard to pass English. im not saying all chinese is good in English * i myself hav alot to work on* and all malays are bad in it, but as overall, it seems so. Its high time our contry improve now.

ok ! finish gabbling. time for beeeed. night blog ^^

deep thoughts

sometimes, i think im a hypocrite. i often remind myself and is proud of myself for being a person who value friendship as much as my family. i boasted around how much friendship means to me. i gave wise words to people to handle their relationship with their friends, i find reasons for them to appreciate that someone which they hate and find faults with.

but i failed long time ago, to do that myself.

pimples breakout !!!!

arghhhhh !!!! big big gigiantic pimples loaded with yellowish liquid inside, one poke BURST ! ooze out together with fresh red blood ! *sobz*...when is my pimples goin away ?? i've been staying at home for a week now, no face to meet people. I WANA GO OUT ! .....huhuhu...please fast fast go away. dun stay there forever, i still have dates with frens to go ot with.....*sobz*

p/s : pray to god that tomoro my face will be clean&clear , then i can go eat satay celup =) *im nt goin anywhere unless this thing goes off *

pp/s : people are pissed off because im nt replying smses. holy great . now i have to sms double to say sorry. GREAT!...they expect me to reply when wat they ask is just wat r u doin , eat d ? hw r u today ? *cycle repeat from morning to midnight* EVERY FREAKING DAY .

good morning world

GOOD MORNING WORLD ! woooo ! im up early today ! super duper early, 7:30 , imagine that ! after coming back from kl , i slept my butt off as much as i can, u knw i appreciate my beauty-sleep very much nowadays. cant blame me =) i've been sleeping in clockwise hours in kl. i would rather sleep than go anywhere =)

today was exceptional, coz my dad called someone to modify our roof. lately there's been lotsa break-ins in our area. so, we gotta wake up early to prevent dust while the workers knock off the roof and add in some secret weapon to prevent thieves =)

now, im at my grandma house doing nothing , so sleepy=( can feel my eyes closing, yet i can still blog , hehee. urghhhh! i cant upload photos to facebook beacause of low connection, sigh. but im still thankful that i at least hav a connection. cant ask for more, will die of boredom if cant go online. i'll just have to go to someone's house to upload de photos den.

*eyes fully close* im just babbling...that happens when im sleepy ...buh byeeeeee....im off dreamin now....gona sleep. yawn... * mode off *

p/s : renee, in case u drop by here, sorry , cant upload the photos. low connection. will try to uploas it as fast as i can ~

A once in a blue moon trip =)

At last, a once in a blue moon trip. everytime goin on trips with kl friends, i would enjoy every trip telling myself it would be a hundred times better if i were to go with my malacca bunch of friends. Then i would start dreaming , ahhh....with hui ying and all, it will be an awesome trip =). so the first thing on my mind when i came bc for my hols was to plan a small gathering trip. well, its kind of a dissapoinment for me, many of them cant make it b'coz of studies and jobs especially my soulmate -hui ying =( but still, im glad for this trip which brings me to meet up with some old faces and new faces =)

ok handsup ! i surrender, next to cats, another thing that i fear is heights ! in spite of friends teasing me while on the cable car, i brave myself to deny it. and it sure sucks ! huhuhu, dats the second time in my entire life being on that wobbly thinghy ! imagine it hanging up only-god-knws how high !! wobbling all thru the journey =( and it doesnt help with people teasing u somemore! cant blame me wat, im scare of heights ler xp. it freak me out when it first move, but better later on. thank god.

karaoke at genting was nt as expensive as i think. in fact its cheap .

unfortunately, which to me is fortunately, we decided to not go to theme park and instead just hang around , chit -chat together. you see, i have this love-hate affair with theme parks. i love being there looking at the crowds with happy faces , screaming their lungs off as if trying to scream away their troubles & stressful life, small kids hugging gigantic teddy bears. i love it all BUT, i dunwan to be part of them =( nope, i dunwan to scream my lungs off. being thru once and its terrifying ! blame me for being a chicken . blame it to heights. i'm satisfied enuf to just be a spectator...heeehe =) and well off camwhore-ing =)

dear kah ling was attacked by headache from the beginning of the trip till the end, which pretty much explain her moodiness and my quite-down mood. she was the closest to me compare to the others, naturally i have to teman her and make sure she enjoy this trip. if she needs a rest i'll hav to make sure she gets her rest. base on her reaction & mood during de trip, i think i didnt do a great job. so sorry kahling for nt making this trip awesome for you. sorry. felt guilty =(

cant say that its an awesome trip,but still i'm glad for it. when will be able to have a trip like this again ? it will be ages i think. everyone scattered in places to study as well as work, busy with their own life, its a miracle if we can ever gather properly, with everyone turning up. *let me make that as my birthday wish* i have to wish for that. thats how hard it is for us to be able to gather together.

studying in kl has made me miss all of my malacca friends more than ever, although we seldom meet up and keep in contact, i love u guys nonetheless & appreciate everyone of you =)* looking forward to having a blasting trip with u guys, which i shall wish it may come soon one of these days.*

p/s : to those that didnt make it to the trip : huiying,mingyong,cailing,shiyin,renee,ahkiat,yufatt,wailoon, love u guys too =)

pp/s: yeo hui ying, told u i wont be myself without u ! u r the missing piece to me soulmate ! miss u ! better get ur butt back here before i die of boredom !

~ cheers to friendship ~