yuxuan ,bye ........rest in peace.

i was so shocked when i receive de message from hong kim ......saying dat u passed away, and asking us to go bc , attend ur funeral if we can to bid farewell to u for de last time . i was so so shock n i simply cant believe it ~ i tot he was playing a joke on me ...u knw rite ppl alwayz fool me around ....i jz pray and hope dat dis time i was fooled , but it was not. oh my god ! i jz cant belive it . u were involved in an accident with jun xian and guan xian, seems dat jun xian drove over de limit ...and ..."it happened " why ? why ?? why when life is smoothly goin on well...and i have to receive dis bad news? when i knw u died on thde spot ....it jz reli, deeply pierce into my heart ....i cant hold it ...i have to try to refrain my tears ....i was angry with my mum when she wont allow me go bc and attend ur funeral ....argue with her and almost broke down.....but i refrain ....crying silently in my heart . im so so sorry i cant bid u farewell for de last time ..im so sorry ...im punished with guilt for not getting to u whenever i was bc in malacca..if only i did...im so sorry and i miss u .....: (

yu xuan, here is something to u , deeply from my heart ~


Dear yuxuan,

although we were not a close friend ..but we were frens,
we were once in the same class for a short period.
i remember ur cheerful smile which u alwayz greet me with,
i remember ur cheerful , kind N amazing personality.
i remember u tease me sometimes ,
we did fool around too.....
i remember u kindly offer to fetch me home sometimes.
now, with u absent in our life,
we lose a special fren.....
a fren we will never forget ,
a friend we will alwayz miss N remember in heart.
to us and from all of us ,
yu xuan, u were a special friend !

P/s : like wat wei teck says, this is life ~
one moment we were all here,
next moment , it wont be de same again~

im BACK !!!

god ...im finally FREEEEeee enuff to come here and BLOG ! and i have lotta say ! lotta blog !

ok..goin to do dis step by step . first, it has been a chaotic week for me .....and i wasn't sure wether i can go through it again . to me its terryfying ....

we were given a task to create a space dat can occupy two total different ppl with different personality. one will be a painter which loves to be expose to sunshine and brightness; while another is sensitive to light. both live under one roof but different space, with jz one common area leading them to meet. and we were given a short time to complete tis task. before coming to de final u have to do lots of sketchmodel , u do and do and do till ur lectuer nod their heads. me myself have to try and try till de 4th one , my dear rosaidah finally say "YES" . Afterdat, u just cant imagine, and u would never want to imagine it ! in tat short time we have to come out with

1) one final model applied with colours

2)four technical drawings of my final model( its not easy!)

3) develop photos

4) come out with a presentation board that suits ur theme.

although its only 4. but it takes ages man....it takes 5 to 6 hours to complete the techinical drawings! manage to finished my presentation board just on time !!! 8:3o in the morning, wednessday. and my presentation was 8:30 !!!! GOD ! i was shaking while doin that presention board and i just cant take the pressure,tears roll down while doin my drawing...( of course no one sees me xP) 8:30 sharp ,me and zoey quickly run and run and run!! we cross de road, take de lift

BOOOM!! on the 6th floor! phew ~~~~ we make it ! the rest is history ~all of us was in huge stress..dat we almost cant breath...

we whine and complain while doin our project,

why did we take up IAD anway ??

why torture ourself while other ppl is having fun ??

why make ourself suffer so much...??

why har ??

just for the sake tat : we are passionate about arts and IAD ! haiz~

im so glad tat we have gone through tat moment . i realise that we have to be tough taking up dis course ! we gotta have that never -ending spirit ! and my quote of the day would be

you are never goin to make it if u cant take the pressure

i missssss u so much !!!!!

its been a long time since we talk tis much ...and guesse wat i finish up my credit jz by chatting with u on the phone ..haha but its worth it !!!! things does not goes dat well for both of us rite ??? we still agree dat malacca is de best ..malacca frens is de best !!!!! sometime we get sick of our life in kl .....and we miss malacca frens so much ....things r so bad dat we even nearly gave up . I MISS U SO SO S SO MUCH .....
I WISH I CAN TALK FOR HOURS WITH U ....
I WISH I CAN TELL U EVERYTHING DATS GOIN ON RITE NW IN MY LIFE
I RELI WISH WE CAN MEET UP ....
I RELI WISH ........