grateful & thankful ~

[ its a polaroid ]

im grateful and thankful dat god blessed me with a bunch of weirdos : )

im not the kind of person dat blogs everything about my daily life ...my itsy bitsy part of life. im one of those dat blogs according to my mood. i dun often blog on daily life, but rather more on those itsy bitsy tiny weenie things dat stir up a wave in my memories, my mind, my heart and my mood. Today, i suddenly have the tendency to blog on my buddies in kl : )

life would be much more dull if not for the existence of THEM : )

they are wonderful people with a HUGE sense of humour : ) racheal,cayenne,krys,shennese,cendy,alvin,amos,ken.zoey,hp,ceekare. these are the names that lingered in my mind everyday,coz we meet everyday,hang around everyday. their names stay up in my head without me realising it . i repeat calling their names countless times in a day .

we r the future interior architecture designers !

we are classmates and buddies and weirdos : )

we are a bunch of camwhores (teeeheeee)

we stay up late into the night to complete out models

we hang out together everyday during lunch time

we cursed our lecturers together when we are stress

and when they pissed us offf ( its a fun thing cursing with ur buddies : ) )

we yum char and talk craps together

we r a bunch of shock sendiri people : )

we cracks stupid cold jokes and laugh of like hyena ,like nobody business : )

we laugh out loud in the middle of the night without reason : 0

we lend and borrow each other money ( dats not a good habit )

we remind each other of their weakness

sometimes we cook and at together

we went on genting trip and shout like nobodybusinesss haha ( ok its only me )

* the list goes on and on ...*

its reli shocking sometimes when u suddenly realise dat u actually hang out with these people EVERYDAY ? and u never get bored of each other. eventually they r part of ur life too . but sometimes we take them for granted. so today ...im writing this post dedicating it to them : ) hopefully we will be by each other side and hang out together through out the years : ) and someday after many many many years, we will remember and smile like dis : ) with a tinge feel of fortunate: )

*to a bunch of wonderful people and my buddies : ) *

tonight ~

its 1:56 now , im supposed to be in bed ....but y m i not ?? extremely exhausted yet thinks dat sleeping is a waste of time . i wish every night ahead would be like tonight. as free as the fishes in the deep peaceful sea . yes ! tonight is one of those extra bonus night which i seldom get ! i dun have any project for dis week !!! IMAGINE DAT ??!!! im appreciating it yet in a more anxious way . anxious of the night dat i have more till i have to start warmin up for projects ~ the later part of the day would alwez b the time where i start to think alot , where i start finding answers to all my questions. i've alwez prefer nightime to day time. alwez turning pesmist in the middle of the night. i like it when everyone is asleep and i have the whole space to myself.

tonight seems to be the night which i wish deeply that i can have someone to talk to. to spill out evrything from my heart. everyone needs to undergo the cleaning process once a while , and it seems that my cleaning process happens to be tonight . sobz...but there is no trash bin there for me to throw up ~ ...huhuhu...how i wish i can have someone to chit chat with me . how i wish for my best buddies to be around me tonight, how i wish they can be by myside...and tats all i can ask for . how i wish ...we can spill out everything together...how i wish ...i miss those days where everyday is our day ! we talk ,chit chat non stop..we laught like a hyena in disgust ...we laugh like nobody business...how i miss those day ...can u guys jz appear infront of me ?? sobz sobz ........sigh ~ im desperate and in need of my buddies . sigh ~

talking craps ~

ok ..since ive complain like countless time of my projects ..so im gona jz keep quiet dis time ...leave it for the next project ...

im goin to tell myself a little story of the girl up there .

dis little girl is given a beautiful name called adeline tan

dis girl is damn stupid ..at least i think dis is how she thinks of herself

she is equally careless and sometimes brainless too : )

she is a huge fan of emo

happiness and sadness to her is jz one cm apart

she hates to pretend, yet force to put on a mask whenever she feels need to

she loves her friends so much dat she hope for de equal amount of love back and get frustrated when it is not.

she definitely diffrenciate clearly between hate and love ..once its either one , neither one will exist beside

she miss /loves her parents and brothers dearly

she know a thing or two ..may be more about arts

she got coax into iad when wat she aim for WAS id

she remember and treasure the pass as much as the present

she alwez thinks dat she have a tumour somewhere in her body and disease too !

she alwez google for a certain kind of disease and like to assumed that she have it !

she often gets bored of herself and then try not looking at herself for the wholeday

she hate pimples..yet her entire face is full of it ..( yuck !)

she likes her shiny black hair ..but wishes to cut it when its long ..and leave it when its short !

she is 80% contented with her life now : )

bla bla blaablaa....

dis stupid girl is tired of herself now and wish to sleeep ~

( do i actually know myself more than above ??? not much understand me ..so do i ? )

blaaa blaah blaaahhh

kill myself ..KILL ME !

due to the tittle ..therefore ..plz kill me for producing de ugliest model i've ever created ! gaaaaarrhh.....arrrrhhhgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg.....ok im better now ~

o where o where ...mood have u gone to ??
gone with the wild west wind ?
or with shennese's ?
do u need me to lodge a police report ?
i swear i will if u dun roll ur ass back to me NOW !

garrrrrrrhhhhhhhh! nite ~

p/s (will i dreamt of the terrible monster leg i created ?) so excited !

emotional

im so emotional now ...dat i think my tears r bursting out ~ ..gosh ...why m i alwez like dis ...y m i alwez complaining about my workload and how stress i m ...y m i so weak ....y cant jz face it ...be calm like others and jz get on doin my projects ...WHY ????Y !!!!! its not like im de one only one with dis much of workload ...others have de equal amount ...i hate myself whining and complaining here and there ...yet im alwez doin tat . and it jz pissed me off ! y m i so pathetic ! i keep on blaming on the workload..wherelse its me myself dat i have to beat ! why im i living such a stressfull life now ....y am i alwez questioning myself " why did i choose dis subject " hell ! choose d still whine so much ....its not like i can change my course now! AND y am i so scare of PROJECTS !! ...kill me plz ..y am i such a fretting brat! why do i alwez complain ! y cant i overcome it ! I HATE COMPLAINING ! yet im doin it right now ...what a pathetic ungratefull silly girl ~