tonight ~

its 1:56 now , im supposed to be in bed ....but y m i not ?? extremely exhausted yet thinks dat sleeping is a waste of time . i wish every night ahead would be like tonight. as free as the fishes in the deep peaceful sea . yes ! tonight is one of those extra bonus night which i seldom get ! i dun have any project for dis week !!! IMAGINE DAT ??!!! im appreciating it yet in a more anxious way . anxious of the night dat i have more till i have to start warmin up for projects ~ the later part of the day would alwez b the time where i start to think alot , where i start finding answers to all my questions. i've alwez prefer nightime to day time. alwez turning pesmist in the middle of the night. i like it when everyone is asleep and i have the whole space to myself.

tonight seems to be the night which i wish deeply that i can have someone to talk to. to spill out evrything from my heart. everyone needs to undergo the cleaning process once a while , and it seems that my cleaning process happens to be tonight . sobz...but there is no trash bin there for me to throw up ~ ...huhuhu...how i wish i can have someone to chit chat with me . how i wish for my best buddies to be around me tonight, how i wish they can be by myside...and tats all i can ask for . how i wish ...we can spill out everything together...how i wish ...i miss those days where everyday is our day ! we talk ,chit chat non stop..we laught like a hyena in disgust ...we laugh like nobody business...how i miss those day ...can u guys jz appear infront of me ?? sobz sobz ........sigh ~ im desperate and in need of my buddies . sigh ~