my results are out~

a failure ~ i work super hard for my yr one. i shed blood , tears and sweat. i sacrifice my health mentally and physically and rejected alot of friend's request to meet up in malacca, i miss out lotsa fren's b'day. for that everything, i got a "B". GREAT~ so great. does this mean im not working hard ? is it true ? dat im slacking ? i've never work so hard for my entire life, but it doesnt seems enuff.

friends comfort and encourage me dat "B" is nt bad d.... act is very good.... they just didnt c how hard i work for it and in the design stream, getting a "B" is a slap in ur face if u wanna succed. goin thru year one is alredy a tough thing, overcoming every obstacle that i face with tears and phsycho myself to keep goin on with the stress that i often thought will one day kill me ~ looks like i'll have to go extra extra extra super duper hard for my year two. and i hope i can pull thru it. there will be more tears, more blood and more sweat. "looking forward to it"

the only thing dat is on the bright side is, everytime after the end of one sem i alwez thought, dis time im reli through wit it, my passion has faded i give up. BUT apparently, it doesnt =) luckily i can say, if nt im goin to live a hell goin thru another two years. after all the stress blood sweat and tears, i still have high hopes and great dreams for it. =) so, this holiday turns out to be a good thing for me. i fully used evry holiday to recharge and re "find" my half-lost passion that was burried under the stressfulness and workload. im so glad that passion found its way home =)

*deep breath* tell myself , im goin to work extra super duper tripple harder ( i'll leave quadrupple for year 3) for year 2. i knw i can do it, just dat tiny little bit more. im glad i have my passion back now,without it i'll never get thru another 2 years. =) year 2 here i come in another 3 months .

wish me luck in goin thru another deeper level phase of hell.