unrealistic.

ok, its not realistic at all. im suddenly swarm with anxiety. im pretty sure i've presented everything today, but something is so wrong here, did i really pass up everything ? did i finish my hmw ? shit, still need to do wat yar ? goshhhh, im suddenly so anxious now. T______T everything happen like a lightning strike, im still not use to the boredom im feeling now, i need something to do or some activities to warm me up , to fill up the emptyness. its getting pretty scary, thinking of projects and assignments now and then although everything is over and i have a freaking 4 months hols. i need to do something , something . . . to get rid off this anxiety. gonna email for intern tomoro and do some room chores, read some books and watch some movies. . . . hopefully i dun wake up in anxiety like i alway does usually.

LET ME REPEAT THIS ONCE AGAIN !

ADELIME TAN I-YING , U R OFFICIALLY OFF FOR 4 MONTHS, STOP THINKING OF ASSIGNMENTS !

bestest friends.

ouwhhh ! i reli miss my bestest friend so so so much . =( it seems like a decade since we gossip and exchange lil' useless topics and we-think-its-a-secret kind of secret . Those days were the best, we would phone each other every single day. (yes, seeing each other in class is just not enough for both of us =) ) we would talk talk, chat chat, gossip, gossip till our parents have to pay the shocking bill >.<>what u and hui ying always talk r ? so many things to say wan meh, canot go to school and talk meh . HAHAHA. and i would always reply OF COURSE CANOT LAR. CANOT WAIT LAR~ =P ouwwh, i miss her. she is literally my other half, she is the shadow of me, she is my pillar of support when i was unhappy. true enough we have our fair share of ups and downs, there was a period where both of us was so freaking busy with our own life that we left out each other from our lives. and i almost thought, ok we are done ! i accepted the fact that, we cant keep someone to ourself, people change, so do us. may be this is where our frindship stop and i shud jz let it go and be grateful for the fact that we were once the bestest friend. i cried so hard when i finally decided on that fact. silly me. i should have know, good friends, mutual friends, buddies, strangers may walk out of your life but not your bestest friend ! u cant just throw those years of friendship down the river and forget about it. bestest friend stays forever permanently. she's my emma, im her liv =) we are now the same as before ! it had never been better. =D in fact, bare in mind that, friendship needs time investment, dun ever shoo friends off with the excuse of being busy. they are where we are now.

we cant wait to see each other. im counting off the days till we meet, when that time comes, i wan to hear the full story of yesterday's cut short version of when rock star meets classic princess =D . love u much =D

here's a note by my ex-english tutor that i think is worth pondering on.

" So are you still BUSY? I'm sure there's a moment in time that we are not. If you could have time to chat online with a random stranger, you could have picked up the phone and call your dear friend. If you could have the time to play games at home, you could have spend the evening for a football game (example) with your friends or even coffee...If your friends could spend time for you, why can't you? People are too keen to make new and more friends, but they just freaking don't know how to retain those friends they make...It's not the volume, it's the quality. "

stay posotive.

so, its really not dat exciting anymore counting to the days till we have our long hols. its actually gettting stressfull and annoying, really. the start of the long hols means its the end of the big ass final project. . .. . . which seems no where now. i cant see the process and the ending. its slowly, slowly injecting fear into me. im trying to cope with all the stress and all, keeping my fingers cross now. and im so freaking annoyed of myself, why am i always in a sleepy mode. it only got worse after burning midnight oil for 8 days. after submitting the final model, i totally lost my spirit and soul. i sleep all day long whenever i can. rest turn into short nap, short nap turns into deeep lonng sleep. T______T . i cant afford to be sleepy nowadays, there is definitely something wrong with my body system now. 19 days ! 19 freaking days to my long hols, and to the deadline of my final ! WOOT ! praying real hard for it. smile , smile, SMILE =) i am happy, glad and appreciate all the comfort and encouragement i receive from my mates. all the best to all of us ! jiayou !

* like what alvin says , THINK POSITIVE, STAY POSITIVE, GOOD MORNING =D

so near yet so far.

we are best friends, but we are so near yet so far. when i look back at my photos now, i realise that you're missing in most. when i looked at your's i too realise i was not in most of your pictures. i wish i could be n coz those pictures look great. it make me wonder why it wasn't me on the pictures. why i never knew this till i saw the pictures. i wonder if we will still look good in pictures together.