its 2 am now, and my butt is still sticking on the chair donwstair with fat bloody mosquitoes sucking my fresh blood. geez. its essay again ! yeepeee =) the subject that i enjoy most ... teeeheeee.... because im such a long-winded person i can talk and talk and talk and over talk. almost 600 hundred words but not even close to the conclusion. die lor, i dont even knw wether im on the track or out of track. but nvm =) mr leong said its just a warm -up essay. its just a bloody warm-up essay, not dissertation OK .im gonna finish it today =)
*this post is just a rambling post, so pardon me for my sentence structures , no one rambles and still thinks of structures ok.*
im happy that my christmas celabration went well, im happy that i get to hangout with my schoolmates and some good friends, im happy that i've almost finish my essay, im happy that its holiday, im happy that im at home, im happy that i've a long chat with my cousins today, im happy that i've trim my eyebrow today, im happy that my complexion has improve a little, im happy that i've bought a dress and belt today.
im unhappy because holiday is ending, im unhappy i still have one final development model to finish before goin back to kl, im unhappy because one roomie has shifted, im unhappy because im leaving my home again next week.
so, looking at the scores, overall i think im still happy =) as we grew older and mature, we tend to hunt for the big thing to satisfied our desires. But sometimes, small tiny happenings and incidents can fulfill that crave too. just by chatting with your family&friends can be quite fulfilling too, even if its just craps. It all depends on how we interprete it. *blah blah blah......me with my philosophy again....*
im procrastinating too long now, gotta go back to my essay. sorry for such a random post =) *oh ya, alvin kwang you shock me ! u shock me with your face in the follower's list. how you dig my blog wan r. ok i admit im being a wee little bit anxious now. because i sense a tiny growth in my readers, never expected it because it all started out as a guarded empty space just to voice out my thoughts and feelings. but nevermind =) not my father or mother reading can d. *sigh, i guesse im not measured for the successful-blogger-type. im comfortable enough in this small circle of close friends =) welcome alvin =)
ok. bye. essay calling me. bye.
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Friday, December 25, 2009
my dearest roomie =) i love you .
to my dearest roomie ~
dear cayenne , i still rmb the second person that i get to know in this house is you =) you gave me the impression of being a cute intelligent kind of girl , and true too u are cute , intelligent , independent and blurry too =D. although we were not roomies at the very beginning and we werent actually that close becoz of ...* u knw * we kind of tot you were in the same group as her =) but deep inside i hold no grudge against you and i actually admire you alot because you are everything that im not * except the blurrness * you have beauty with brains wherelse i have minimum beauty with a useless brain kept frozen inside the fridge. because im such a homie girl, ur independency actually shock me =) i actually really do hope that one day i can be as independent as you are =) two years ago, i will not go shopping on my own, two years ago i will not go out with public transport on my own, ......ect. but believe it or not i did all that and am comfortable with it now because of you . i always told myself if u can go out alone to find your friends without telling your parents . why cant i ? - Thank you -
As time flies , we got more and more close, eventually i shifted in as your new roomie =) the night that all hell break loose was the night i actually brave myself to ask you your opinion on * her * =) me and xinhui was so excited for our new member in the gang against *her* our relationship only got better and better from there =) we have so much fun as a gang and i loveee all my roomies in room 1 so so much especially you because we hang out so much , same class same house same course same gang =) its fun having you around. the best desicions i ever made this two years was shifting in to room 1 =) i dont know about u guys but i love the atmosphere in room 1 . we have such good relationship between our roomies i felt bless. we can be as quiet when we want to and as noisy when we want to. i like the mutual relation between us where we wake up in the morning of saturday/sunday and we dun feel the need to talk/communicate with each other, we dont have to force to communicate with each other , untill the time to plan for lunch or dinner. we talk when we want to, we shut ourself when we want to but our relationship is still as good =) Im not a very hygienic person at all, im actually quite messy, thank you for tolerating with me. im not sure wether i can ever find such good roomates in the future anymore . thanks for accepting me in room 1 - Thank you -
You are my second alarm clock. i'm not an early sleeper and an early riser like you, half of the time u were the one who woke me up with your shocking tone : OI! ITS 12 NOON LOR ! or ADELINE WE ARE LATE ! FASTER WAKE UP ! i really do appreciate that alot, i dont think everyone else's roomates is an alarm clock to them , may be its becoz we are in the same class , but still im glad and fortunate to have a human alarm clock when my mobile alarm doesnt work for me =) i dont know how im gonna survive after this , but - Thank you -
i still remember when u first came here, u told me u cant stand sleeping with the lights and music on. but with roomies that have different lifestyle , u eventually suit yourself to it. more like *immune* youself. im sorry for being a late sleeper and a hardcore music fans. i need the lights and music on when im awake but i know its hard for you. thx for tolerating with my lifestyle . - sorry , thank you -
i dont know wether u realise or not, i begin to rely alot on you. on almost everything. i keep on asking stupid questions every single day and thx for answering them with or without patience. especially in our projects and assignments. you are my life saviour. im not exaggerating , its true. im gona be so dead after this =( im gonna kill myself after this =( i rely ALOT on you on projects, physically and mentally. you were with me for every projects, every single bloody rushing projects. you help me not only physycally but also mentally. you support and advice me when i almost break-down. i duno , by chatting while rushing, you always manage to make me laugh when im actually stress to the max and im nt sure its ur silliness or my stupidness that pull us thru the bloody freaking sleepless nights. i guesse we got closer while exchanging small personal talks in the middle of those freaking bloody nights. i love them =) from bitching about college&lecturers, complaining about workloads to our family& friends and much more personal matters. i love chatting with you and having those personal talks =) makes the whole bloody night much more bearable. dont think im gonna survive after this but, ...... - Thank You -
you are a bright student , you pass every projects with flying marks wherelse im just an average student. im always average on everything. hence, i need alot of help during projects, you were always there for my stupid questions. without you may be i would even fail my project i think. im so freaking stupid i have to ask those question where i myself felt so embarrass , but u still help me with it.you gave suggestions and comments that i appreciated alot. you help me with everything that i dont know. and no, you have no idea know how much much much u meant to me. when i know you really are shifting i cried. Because i dun think im gonna survive without those bearable nights. its so lonely rushing for projects alone outside =( you were always sitting outside with me =( plus zhini is gonna graduate soon too. its gonna be a tough one for me on the next project. but still - Thank You -
from this post , may be some would think that we are soulmates or besties or bff those kind of things , but no, we are not. we are everything but not those. but i love you nevertheless. =) cool right , we are not soulmates, we are not besties , we are not best friend forever but i still love you as much =) you are one of the coolest roomie i ever had. eventhough i feel so sad and unwilling for you to shift but i cant do anything right, its not like if i pray hard for some fire or earthquake that would destroy your house it will happen right ? its not gonna happen right ? i dont know how im gonna survive without you and zhini's goin away soon too, everything will not be the same anymore after christmas. I guesse i'm force to accept it. Once again. i would like to say :
* THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING * will surely miss your absence in room 1.
p/s : once roomates forever roomates =) we are not best friend forever but roomates forever =)
dear cayenne , i still rmb the second person that i get to know in this house is you =) you gave me the impression of being a cute intelligent kind of girl , and true too u are cute , intelligent , independent and blurry too =D. although we were not roomies at the very beginning and we werent actually that close becoz of ...* u knw * we kind of tot you were in the same group as her =) but deep inside i hold no grudge against you and i actually admire you alot because you are everything that im not * except the blurrness * you have beauty with brains wherelse i have minimum beauty with a useless brain kept frozen inside the fridge. because im such a homie girl, ur independency actually shock me =) i actually really do hope that one day i can be as independent as you are =) two years ago, i will not go shopping on my own, two years ago i will not go out with public transport on my own, ......ect. but believe it or not i did all that and am comfortable with it now because of you . i always told myself if u can go out alone to find your friends without telling your parents . why cant i ? - Thank you -
As time flies , we got more and more close, eventually i shifted in as your new roomie =) the night that all hell break loose was the night i actually brave myself to ask you your opinion on * her * =) me and xinhui was so excited for our new member in the gang against *her* our relationship only got better and better from there =) we have so much fun as a gang and i loveee all my roomies in room 1 so so much especially you because we hang out so much , same class same house same course same gang =) its fun having you around. the best desicions i ever made this two years was shifting in to room 1 =) i dont know about u guys but i love the atmosphere in room 1 . we have such good relationship between our roomies i felt bless. we can be as quiet when we want to and as noisy when we want to. i like the mutual relation between us where we wake up in the morning of saturday/sunday and we dun feel the need to talk/communicate with each other, we dont have to force to communicate with each other , untill the time to plan for lunch or dinner. we talk when we want to, we shut ourself when we want to but our relationship is still as good =) Im not a very hygienic person at all, im actually quite messy, thank you for tolerating with me. im not sure wether i can ever find such good roomates in the future anymore . thanks for accepting me in room 1 - Thank you -
You are my second alarm clock. i'm not an early sleeper and an early riser like you, half of the time u were the one who woke me up with your shocking tone : OI! ITS 12 NOON LOR ! or ADELINE WE ARE LATE ! FASTER WAKE UP ! i really do appreciate that alot, i dont think everyone else's roomates is an alarm clock to them , may be its becoz we are in the same class , but still im glad and fortunate to have a human alarm clock when my mobile alarm doesnt work for me =) i dont know how im gonna survive after this , but - Thank you -
i still remember when u first came here, u told me u cant stand sleeping with the lights and music on. but with roomies that have different lifestyle , u eventually suit yourself to it. more like *immune* youself. im sorry for being a late sleeper and a hardcore music fans. i need the lights and music on when im awake but i know its hard for you. thx for tolerating with my lifestyle . - sorry , thank you -
i dont know wether u realise or not, i begin to rely alot on you. on almost everything. i keep on asking stupid questions every single day and thx for answering them with or without patience. especially in our projects and assignments. you are my life saviour. im not exaggerating , its true. im gona be so dead after this =( im gonna kill myself after this =( i rely ALOT on you on projects, physically and mentally. you were with me for every projects, every single bloody rushing projects. you help me not only physycally but also mentally. you support and advice me when i almost break-down. i duno , by chatting while rushing, you always manage to make me laugh when im actually stress to the max and im nt sure its ur silliness or my stupidness that pull us thru the bloody freaking sleepless nights. i guesse we got closer while exchanging small personal talks in the middle of those freaking bloody nights. i love them =) from bitching about college&lecturers, complaining about workloads to our family& friends and much more personal matters. i love chatting with you and having those personal talks =) makes the whole bloody night much more bearable. dont think im gonna survive after this but, ...... - Thank You -
you are a bright student , you pass every projects with flying marks wherelse im just an average student. im always average on everything. hence, i need alot of help during projects, you were always there for my stupid questions. without you may be i would even fail my project i think. im so freaking stupid i have to ask those question where i myself felt so embarrass , but u still help me with it.you gave suggestions and comments that i appreciated alot. you help me with everything that i dont know. and no, you have no idea know how much much much u meant to me. when i know you really are shifting i cried. Because i dun think im gonna survive without those bearable nights. its so lonely rushing for projects alone outside =( you were always sitting outside with me =( plus zhini is gonna graduate soon too. its gonna be a tough one for me on the next project. but still - Thank You -
from this post , may be some would think that we are soulmates or besties or bff those kind of things , but no, we are not. we are everything but not those. but i love you nevertheless. =) cool right , we are not soulmates, we are not besties , we are not best friend forever but i still love you as much =) you are one of the coolest roomie i ever had. eventhough i feel so sad and unwilling for you to shift but i cant do anything right, its not like if i pray hard for some fire or earthquake that would destroy your house it will happen right ? its not gonna happen right ? i dont know how im gonna survive without you and zhini's goin away soon too, everything will not be the same anymore after christmas. I guesse i'm force to accept it. Once again. i would like to say :
* THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING * will surely miss your absence in room 1.
p/s : once roomates forever roomates =) we are not best friend forever but roomates forever =)
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
merry christmassss =)
one of those things that kept me going on while i nearly break-down in assignments and projects was the fact that christmast holiday is near. when there is no hope we dig and dig and tend to cling on to that very hope that we dug out. just by someone mentioning would make me atleast feels that tiny bit of excitement. i heart christmas not because im a christian, not because i love santa claus, not because i love prezzies but of the same bunch of friends i hang out with every year for christmas. its kinda like a tradition for us for the pass few years and it has alwayz been the thing we were all planning big for it. this year was not to be different, at least thats what i naively thought. i actually forgot about how people change throughout the years, i actually forgot that not everyone is backing up that intention that all of us once solely swear and agree on. so may be im one of the few ones that still rmb. i have others inviting to spend some quality time together for christmast but it doesnt seems natural to celabrate with them because its not like that for the pass few years, i stick with the same bunch just because we all kept promise about it.
so quite a while ago, kim yeat actually ask me out on christmast with a couple of friends and i politely rejected and at that very moment i reject, i doubt on how im goin to celabrate this christmas. how sure was i that i actually do have a christmas celabration this year with the same bunch of friends.
BUT now, i just dont freaking care anymore ! =))) so what if its not the same bunch, people change so i guesse i need a change too =) hey ! its not like i dont have others to celabrate with ! im not gona waste my christmas =)) worst to worst i can just celabrate with my families =) hey ! i have super duper cool cousins lor =) amanda and celine is just as cool as all of you !!! xP malacca is a small great place to celabrate christmas tooo =)) i misss malacca =)
im looking forward to the coming two weeks hols and christmasssss wooohooooo~merry merry christmas everyone xP
so quite a while ago, kim yeat actually ask me out on christmast with a couple of friends and i politely rejected and at that very moment i reject, i doubt on how im goin to celabrate this christmas. how sure was i that i actually do have a christmas celabration this year with the same bunch of friends.
BUT now, i just dont freaking care anymore ! =))) so what if its not the same bunch, people change so i guesse i need a change too =) hey ! its not like i dont have others to celabrate with ! im not gona waste my christmas =)) worst to worst i can just celabrate with my families =) hey ! i have super duper cool cousins lor =) amanda and celine is just as cool as all of you !!! xP malacca is a small great place to celabrate christmas tooo =)) i misss malacca =)
im looking forward to the coming two weeks hols and christmasssss wooohooooo~merry merry christmas everyone xP
Saturday, December 5, 2009
randoms
hmmmm...its almost two but no, those tiny bit of sleepy-ness havent reach me yet. i felt terribly sleepy this afternoon, may be the short hideous nap i took in mph did work for me =). so, tomoro its ME -DAY again. its gona be me and me and me and nobody else. *sigh i chose to not go genting with the gang coz im pathetic like that. i knw i wont be doing homework for the whole day tomoro. its really just for the peace of my conscience. im nt goin to enjoy fully because i feel guilty for neglecting my homework so might as well not go. somemore i skip class today =(( didnt feel right u knw, im not the skip-your-class type. its the second time in these few short months. T_____T noooo....im not turning it into a habit am i ??? this canot be tolerate ! apart from feeling guilty ....its definitely worth it though ! coz its my dear roomie-cayenne's birthday =) and 2012 is awesome ! WORTH IT !
so, because i let my geniue brain wanders freely just for tonight, i suddenly have lotsa options to make. what time shall i sleep tonight, its a waste to sleep early coz tomoro is the start of anew research. if i sleep late what time shall i wake-up tomoro ? if there is no accident or anything like that i think i will wake-up greeting mr sun. so, whats for lunch tomoro ? and dinner ? what movie/drama shall i watch before starting my research ? shall i appear busy or available in msn tomorrow ? shall i be kind and unblock everyone in my msn list just for tomoro ? shall take the whole afternoon reading my books or what. ok im being silly. im tired of making decisions. i shall leave everything to god . lol.
its another silly random post. i shall sleep in late for today. yeeeepeeeee. and plz let me be alive tomoro. i still want to live okay. im not that depressed to commit suicide ok dearest brian. dun worry.
so, because i let my geniue brain wanders freely just for tonight, i suddenly have lotsa options to make. what time shall i sleep tonight, its a waste to sleep early coz tomoro is the start of anew research. if i sleep late what time shall i wake-up tomoro ? if there is no accident or anything like that i think i will wake-up greeting mr sun. so, whats for lunch tomoro ? and dinner ? what movie/drama shall i watch before starting my research ? shall i appear busy or available in msn tomorrow ? shall i be kind and unblock everyone in my msn list just for tomoro ? shall take the whole afternoon reading my books or what. ok im being silly. im tired of making decisions. i shall leave everything to god . lol.
its another silly random post. i shall sleep in late for today. yeeeepeeeee. and plz let me be alive tomoro. i still want to live okay. im not that depressed to commit suicide ok dearest brian. dun worry.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
miss u lar =(
awwww freaking misssss u larrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ! i wan to see u nowwwwwww ! =( *sigh . my life is so sad and miserable lar, its alwayz congested with workloads. ahhhhhhhhhhh i missss u larrrrrrrrrrrrrr ! blah blah blah blah blah. when i let loose myself , it means all hell break loose, muahaha. im not doing hmw today !!!!! dun even give a shit about it for now. i jz wan a rest. have been undergoing a very tense period and now that im free, im wild ! muahaha. but jz for tonight, tomoro is another new briefing of a new project. FML ! FML ! *sigh.
a completely irrelevant p/s : hangout with ms elephant and rujia after presentation this morning, had sushi zanmai and went for a quick shopping spree. love hanging out with them so much, tired but i get the satisfaction ^^. we've even plan our next dining destinations for one whole week =)))
NIGHT WORLD ~ i shall sleep as though tomoro doesnt exist =).
a completely irrelevant p/s : hangout with ms elephant and rujia after presentation this morning, had sushi zanmai and went for a quick shopping spree. love hanging out with them so much, tired but i get the satisfaction ^^. we've even plan our next dining destinations for one whole week =)))
NIGHT WORLD ~ i shall sleep as though tomoro doesnt exist =).
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
make a difference .
today's presentation was a pleasureable experience for me, first time in 2 yrs im able to speak and voice out my opinion without fear. love ms wardah so much. she gives comment that makes u think deep rather than criticizing what has been done. we designers are here to make a difference. try to make a difference and not repeating what has been existing all this while, well said ms wardah . why spend 7o thousand just to come for college to be the same. might as well copy other peoples works u wont need to learn. why do you want to design something that alredy exist, its a waste of time. try not to limit ur creativity. Healthy comparison among peers is effective. there are so many colleges out there in the same industry, you have to have your own signature few more yrs later to compete and stand out from the thousands of designers. what makes you different from the thousands of people. what makes an employer choose you over them ? oh ya, ms wardah said eric leong spoilt the id industry =) if what u can do is just paint your wall with a few buckets of awesome colors plus some decorations, then might as well dont take this course, everyone can do that. he doesnt seems to attract alot of iad lecturers =) but its totally true, well said. ms wardah gave us credits for being able to successfully complete everything in such a short period, compare to the previous batch we have the best numbers of submissions =) im so proud of myself for being able to complete everything too =)
what ms wardah said today is more than what i express here, her words leave a big impact on me. todays presentation made me realise that after all the whinning and howling , its all worth it. i tot that i must have lost my passion for this subject, i was afraid for this time to come because i might be suffering like hell if i hate this course, i have another 1 yr to go. a tough one too! so im delighted that i finally know that i love this course alot, but i hate doing things in a rush and bein under pressure.anyway everything went smoothly lar, good luck to you ms wardah. hope everything goes well for u in singapore. sad though because i've never have you as my lecturer before. but, strive for your future and be strong ms wardah =) cheers !
phew, im tired. nap ^^
what ms wardah said today is more than what i express here, her words leave a big impact on me. todays presentation made me realise that after all the whinning and howling , its all worth it. i tot that i must have lost my passion for this subject, i was afraid for this time to come because i might be suffering like hell if i hate this course, i have another 1 yr to go. a tough one too! so im delighted that i finally know that i love this course alot, but i hate doing things in a rush and bein under pressure.anyway everything went smoothly lar, good luck to you ms wardah. hope everything goes well for u in singapore. sad though because i've never have you as my lecturer before. but, strive for your future and be strong ms wardah =) cheers !
phew, im tired. nap ^^
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