procrastinate~

here im again PROCRASTINATING ~......who invent such word huh ? mmm...everyone jz lovveee to procrastinate . im a huge fan of it ! HUGE ! i shud nt be here wandering around ...my butt shud be on the chair outside !! .why m i here ? WHY AM I HERE ?? -------procrastinating.

im sick of model makings ~

ok , im gona puke !! ..the dull lifeless smell of masking tape, cardboard, boxboard, uhu , model card, model board , pieces of papers, scissors, ruler & pencils jz makes me wana PUKE !! .urghh ....!!! its disgusting ! i cant get rid of de smell, it has been lingering around me dis few days, and will continue to do so ! dey follow me into my my dreams !!oh ....dis is just so so damn shitty ! .....urrgh ! ...i still have to deal with it for three weeks ..!!! aaarg!!! ...i hate model makings ...hate it ! hate it ! sometimes , i jz have the tendencies of puking on top of all those damn expensive materials !

god, plz spare me from more obstacles in this project , plz make dis project run smoothly , plz make my laptop work fabulous for this whole project , plz plz plzzzzz ..make my life easier ..can ?? ok or nt ?? plz make mr razif nod his head as soon as possible ~

i pray to all gods from all religions , im adeline tan i -ying in malaysia, currently in kbu international college taking up iad courses , and life has been tough for me while doin projects, may the mighty gods take care of me during this project . thxx a million , trillion, drillion ~ in return i promise i will donate more money to those in need , and i will try my very best in helping those who need my help. i will nt be selfish of my generousity ~

my deepest thank you again ~

im saving saving saving !!! i knw i knw i knw !

dear parents ,

sorry dat i insist on having dat amount of money left in de bank for me. im sorry ...but plz dun think dat im using dat amount of money spending on accessories , shoes clothes , cosmestics ...or my favourite things ...or as u and papa would say " a pile of useless rubbish " its nt like u all dun understand me ...do i look like some empty minded girl who will simply spend as much as i like ?? as i want to ?? well dat would be wat i reli wan to do if im rich , but i knw i cant now coz i kwn de limit and i dun have the investment in doin it ! and i knw u all send me here to study nt to spend money on stupid things . but aaargghhh ! for god sake .....do u knw how hard is it surviving in kl ?? having a bunch of frens who frequently visit some expensive restaurant .....who frequently make a visit to cinema ....who sometimes organize trips .....taking up de most expensive course in de college ....having to buy thousand of materials for projects ( mind u its nt cheap) .....AND .....i knw we r not super rich , but we r nt poor too, i knw u all jz dunwan to let me simply spend on useless things ..i knw u all mummy would love to use dat money to buy accessories for the house including my room ..I KNW I KNW I KNW !! .....

but its hard ..its reli reli reli hard for me ..do u guys even realise dat ?? i try so so hard nt to spend on extra useless things ...i try super hard nt to go to expensive restaurant and eat food dat is out of my budget ...i even tried nt eating when they went to an expensive restaurant once. i choose nt to eat expensive food and go buy some karipap to eat, and do u knw hw hard is dat ?? i was damn hungry and would reli love to try on dat restaurant's food ..but I DIDNT coz i knw i dun have de money to do it ! i rather save money to buy materials. i try to suggest some cheaper place to eat ..but u knw i reli cant do much ...no one listen to me whenever i suggest some cheaper place ...and nt veryone hav to follow me eat cheap food rite ?? dey have their own life, and we follow majority , with me alone how can i change all of their minds, although i reli hope dat i can stay at home cook and eat ..BUT ...but ...do u knw im scare dat after a few more times i would b left out !

dey love goin to cinema ..to my dismay . to be honest i would reli reli love to go visit de cinema whenever dey suggest goin. as often as possible i dun mind ...BUT I DIDNT !! b coz i knw i cant do dat coz im saving for materials and food ..i dun have exra money to do dat ...and i tried several times nt to follow them ..reli i swear ! ..i didnt follow them a couple of times ..and de result is ....they say i dun like social life ..i dun follow them, dey say y m i so un- social ...and dey even say someday may b i will choose a guy who love to stay at home nt goin anywhere. do u knw how hurt and angry i m listening to such comments ?? do u think i like it alot nt to follow ...?? jz b coz i dun have de money to do all those activities ! im scare dat i would b left out after several times nt following them to movies or dinner or shoppings . so i choose to follow them with a heavy heart , trying to spend as little as possible. i can go shoppings with them without buying anything. in fact ..dats what i alwez do , go empty handed come bc also empty handed. do u all hw much i desire to buy those beautiful dresses and accessories ?? BUT I DIDNT BUY IT ! COZ I KNW I KNW I KNW !

its reli hard. whenever its de time to buy materials i would save and save and i reli dun mind saving but ....sometimes with a bunch of frens u reli cant save too much, like i say i reli think im goin to be left out if i join them less. and papa , mummy ...sometimes ..sometimes i need to buy things for my own also rite ?? how can a girl nt buy anything for herself ?? garrrghhhh....i long to have them buy didnt jz b coz i knw i cant and dat would make my money less ..i did it b coz of u all and here u guys thinks dat im some stupid selfish daughter dunwan to give all de ptptn money to u guys, trying to sabotage the money. i tried so hard here spending less ....i hate nt having enuf money for all de materials and activities ...but i dunwan ending up oweing people money ...i dunwan end up oweing hundreds....so i spend reli less. can u guys understand it ???? plz ????? and college life is damn bloody expensive ok ...today u have a hundred.... BOOM ....end of the week everything vanish !

THE FOOD IS BLOODY EXPENSIVE !
MY MATERIAL IS BLOODY EXPENSIVE !
ACTIVITIES ARE BLOODY EXPENSIVE !
LIFE IN KL ARE BLOOOOOOOODDDY EXPENSIVE !

so papa and mummy plz do understand me ~

love
daughter adeline ~

she throwed my stuff again ~

you throwed my stuff AGAIN ~

bye ~ dear myvi NCC9224

shit ! i forgot to kiss goodbye to myvi NCC9224! sorry for not even saying a proper goodbye to u ! ..u have done good for us ! im proud of u myvi 9224! u transported us safely all this while * a credit to ur owner's sister too =) * by owning u all this while makes us more convenience in goin out yum char late at night, great helper in fetching our smelly loaded clothes, by giving me a good and safe trip to genting with my buddies ......N many more ....

in conclusion ...MYVI NC9224 ! u have contribute alot!

therefore u r now temporary given some holidays to recover ur bruises and serve ur other owner !

thx to cayenne the generous humble and good driver . thx for willing to fetch our huge heavy buttocks everywhere and anywhere =) thank you ....*sorry for nt helping u in directions.

p/s make sure the next time u return for ur job u r whiter than ever without bruises ..hehe ~

mmm....

a family photo with my grandparents on my mum's side

a bunch of trusworthy golden friends

a pic i appreciate dearly ( of me and my dear papa )

a family photo with my ah ma ( regretted for nv taking a pic with my ah gong *sobz )

my father's little brother - my father's mother - my father

i tot dat a weekend back at home with my families would surely cure my homesickness ...but it proved me wrong ! I miss them more now.....and was having a childish thought of goin back every weekend . hmmm....if i reli do dat ....my mum would think dat something is wrong with me .....

miss u mummy papa brian ah ma wai poh wai gong ying ying jiu mu jiu jiu big jiu mu big jiu jiu chin yap chin hui amanda celine wendy gugu justin mong shy mong ling jie jie hui ying chen kiat ann hwang renee kah ling my security wai loon pausin termizi ming yong cailing ............etc.

( the list goes on)

p/s love u guys

crochets ~

hmm.....its been a long time since i heard those beautiful melodious voice from him . Dis is the guy dat i admire reli much a long time ago. He is one of my quite talented friends. =) not only does he sings super super well , he plays de guitar as well as de piano ...NOT ONLY DAT ! ..he can reli reli imitate jay chou's rap almost the same , start and stop exactly at de same seconds ..those in tune beats ...those charisma ....huhu...i was stuned when i first heard him rap. flashing back , at dat time i wasnt reli into rap ..i would often skip rap songs,.............until i got the chance to hear him sing. weird huh ?? i wasnt into it when listening to the original singer ..but when i hear him sing ...my god ..i was stuned ! and dat leads me into a more versatile music fans today. eventually after getting more known to raps and gradually begin to appreciate it ...i was exposed to much more different style of music , and suprisingly ....i can accept quite well, And there begins my journey in exploring more different and quirky style to test how far i can go and how versatile i m . from sentimentals to rock n roll, every different style stir up different emotions in me , leading me into its own melodious world. Music to me is as important as consuming 8 glass of water everyday, it is also the invisible hue of every breath i breathe to colour my life with. without music, i would be as lifeless as grey. thinking back, if not for my final desicion to hold on to my dreams in the world of art and designs, i would surely be taking up music now, huming and playing de piano as major and violin as minor. dat was once my music teacher hope for me. mmmm....looks like i dissapoint her now, ( anway it wont be a huge different difference for her) as i m dissapointed n her too.

hmmm...wat would it feel like living everyday, every hour every minute every seconds indulging in tunes and melodies ??


p/s: miss the voice and the singing , when can i hear it again ? tralalala tralalalalalaa ~

random stuff

haih.....sometimes, listening is tiring too.....espeacially from different sides. im strating to become more and more immune. haih...tonite is another boring nite. nothing worth me spending time on it. the only good news is ..imgoin bc dis weekend = ) with my best fren somemore ...hehe ..miss her. =)