emotional

im so emotional now ...dat i think my tears r bursting out ~ ..gosh ...why m i alwez like dis ...y m i alwez complaining about my workload and how stress i m ...y m i so weak ....y cant jz face it ...be calm like others and jz get on doin my projects ...WHY ????Y !!!!! its not like im de one only one with dis much of workload ...others have de equal amount ...i hate myself whining and complaining here and there ...yet im alwez doin tat . and it jz pissed me off ! y m i so pathetic ! i keep on blaming on the workload..wherelse its me myself dat i have to beat ! why im i living such a stressfull life now ....y am i alwez questioning myself " why did i choose dis subject " hell ! choose d still whine so much ....its not like i can change my course now! AND y am i so scare of PROJECTS !! ...kill me plz ..y am i such a fretting brat! why do i alwez complain ! y cant i overcome it ! I HATE COMPLAINING ! yet im doin it right now ...what a pathetic ungratefull silly girl ~