reasons why i dun like my model

yesterday was a wreckage , i screw up all my dun-give-up-hang-on mood freaking off and start worrying tis and dat. all the contribution goes to my lack of confindence and a pair of weird eye balls. despite of frens conforting me and giving me an approval nod for my model, it did nothing magic on me. dat inner me jz keep on telling me ur models are de ugliest among them. plain dull and nothing special. i duno why, despite of lecturer and classmates good comments, but i reli honestly still dun like my gallery model.*sigh

1st - i think deciding a pink gold white and silver colour for it makes it look more like a fairy thinghy and its so pinkish dat i think it jz looks like a poly pocket * those small carry along barbie doll house. from my eye view, my gallery looks like a toy. and dat is de last dat i wan for my shopaholic gallery.

2nd - comparing to others, my gallery space is too plain. i cant seem to think of a good graphic image to put in, and when i do i dun have an appropriate full length paper for my wall :( my wall is damn long and curvy. urghhhhh! den i might as well give up thinking of it,but then every time i look bac at my model, it jz reminds me hw plain it looks.

3rd - i did a mistake from the beginning by constrcuting the wall abit too high. although its still within the measurement given, but halfway thru my project i realise it is abit too high. which contribute to the plainess of my gallery. =(

4th - worrying too much wether my gallery wil be over literal for the lecturers ? although my concept and ideas are wat i wish and will expect of a book gallery if there were a real wan in one u , but it may seems too literal to the lecturers ..=( dat add up to my moodiness.

5th - and de major wreckage came from my favourite lecturer which is nt my favourite in dp class :( although i have full respect and admire him alot of his *bijakness , but he is one helluva lecturer. the whole worry thing was me creating thousand of questions dat he would think of to reject my model. and his rejection on xin hui's and shennese's previous models doesnt help at all.
thru out tis project process, i created thousand of questions dat he would ask , and i created thousand of answers dat i can have to prepare myself for his question, but i too created thousand of question dat he can reject my answers =(

hence, in the end i cant take it and start freaking off. this morning class calm me dwn abit b coz he actually likes my model, thinks my colour combination is good, having de femenine and luxury feel which is good for my shopaholic concept. and he like my material wise *roll eyes. god dat was de last i expected. then , he likes my form and think dat it is fun & he especially likes the gold platform which is de only thing i like in my model. =( but it still havent done any magic on the way i look at my model and looking at other more creative and nice models makes me feel so
* zi bei * on my own model. * may be after a few days of nt looking at my model, i will only den think ...hey actually its not bad. hopefully ~

i knw i dun have de right attitude in my projects but i cant do anything to improve it. *sigh, hw can i be more confident abit ?? how ?? i still have alot to learn. hopefully as time goes by i can be more confident in my projects.

p/s: thx cayenne, zoey and xin hui for all de encouragements and ideas on improving my model.
thx ~ fun having u guys to do project with =)