im not hardworking.

im not at all qualified to be categorized as a hardworking girl . once, i use to be a lazy bum, everything that comes into my mind is everything but homework. i dont live life solely by completing homeworks. completing homework has never been the main concern. now, its barely anything like that anymore. its the opposite of everything. i now officially live life solely by completing projects/assignments in time. i live life by trying to outstand everyone which is so not me, which is something unreachable. im trying to accomplish something that isnt measured for me. everyday i brain feed myself into doing hmw. i force myself to complete my assignments. i miss being me, i miss my old-self. its bloody torturing. its really bloody torturing. im starting to go out of control again. its coming back again. im so sick of it, when will all this end ?

*counting on how much more emo post im goin to blog, we'll c hw far it gets.