the pro and cons.

im not goin to ramble about how stress im or how suffer im this few weeks as i've said enuf. ms elepahant says our blog is so boring now becoz its all about how stress we are in projects. Im jz listing out the pro's and con's of last few stressful chaotic weeks on final model making.

The con's
1. i vomited few times becoz of overly stress. * crystal clear water came out from the puke as i've consume nothing for days and days.
2. lost my appetite and ate nothing but biscuits and water.
3. major serious hair loss. my hair is all flat and dull now. half bald.
4. breakdown and cried alot.
5. stress level reach the max.
6. red small eyes for not sleeping enuf this two weeks. i almost didnt sleep.
7. dark eye circle begin to appear. my skin tone is dark enuf to cover it, so imagine when my dark circle is darker than my skin tone.
8.pale and souless.
9.my backbone hurts . sat too long on the chair , hours of model making turn me into an old lady.
10.seriously thought of giving up changing course and all.
11. make my parents and cousin in malacca worried about me.
12. seriously consider consulting a doc to help control my stress and ways to cope with my stress.
13. i cant differentiate the days now. everyday seems the same to me.

The Pro's
1. if the weighing machine next door is accurate, i lost 7 kg s in one week. *wow. great.
2. broke the record in completing my final in two days. two bloody hell days. a whole new unbelievable breakthru.

so thats the pro's and con's of last two weeks. im speechless tired phsycally and mentally. i cant take in anymore pressure at the time being. im very fragile now, so stay far away from me if u r looking for a fight or to tease me. im now a in a tired souless condition. i shall end this post with this : i've been thru hell all over again. lucky i found my way back.

p/s : really want to thanks ms elephant for phoning me now and then rambling and complaining the stress and workload. as u complain i've somehow found a way out for my stress and feelings, u speak for all the stress im enduring. u make me miss my best friend so much. thx again ms elephant =) muaksss . i shall buy you an elephant next time i see one ok =).


off to bed now. please dun make me die the next day ok. i still want to live.